con 2 the fusion

Getting the bubble is about to burst

Screaming so insanely

Pulled to the edge

Sanding mourning but for this to end

Looking at the edge

Wanting to take a leap

Feeling sunken 

Like an old ship

Young but old

Will I wake ever

From this illusion

It's this reality

The shade falls to my heart

Suffocating they light

Darkness shall reign

Creeping emtional damage

Broken beyond the bend

Here I am

Standing tall

For Allah will save me from myself

For Islam is the best of the medication you could take

Allah the most forgiving the most loving

He is the greatest of all

Allahu Akbar

Am I free

Finally from these shackles they lock my light away

I recite so slightly

The confusion

It conquers my mind

But still thy Lord

Always

I am broken aspired to rebuild

From the strength you have given me

Alhamdulillah 

We be free

To choose

Are you ready?

I know I am

Conquered

As the sun rises

I find myself conquered

But not in dismay

In Serenity's time

The hurt will fade away

Bringing something that has been lost

The hope to overcome the hopelessness

To stop the crimson from flowing

To stop those Snickers in the head

To seek refuge

To need peace

Where to find this indeed

Salah is needed

Allah does not need it he does not need anything 

He's absolute and all knowing

Prayer is for you

As It centers oneself

You feel the noor come in

Breathing so lightly

As one recite so briefly

It seems like seconds go by as you recite

Within the insanity blessed be

Confusion to the max not knowing what to do

I tried to center myself to Allah 

Do not lose my temper to not let the chaos bring destruction

For this is time of serenity

Blessed be in this insanity

Confusion not knowing what to do

But by instinct I do

I Fall to my knees and prostrate 

To the Almighty

Allah I seek You Even in this confusion and abyss of delusion

I find myself with the serenity with you

Finding myself not knowing what to do

To reflect on society to reflect on self to reflect on their Deen

I am here conquering my nafs

And I seek refuge in God always

.... isolation

Where to go?

Up to the bend

Upon to the doom

Into the solitude

The isolation

Fulfilling to the brim of absolution

Destined for thy to be

Stuck in this destined insanity

To be content to be humble

To have patience

Such to strive so

Everlasting

Tears rapidly fall as the insanity breaks

My spirit is broken

I do not know where to go

Here I am lost within the solitude my mind everlasting

Is this insanity

Every single emotion that rip through me

Let's bring the cycle of chaos into the picture

Running at a fork to a road

Which way to go which way to go Up down all around

To let myself scream

To let myself be deemed

Is this destined for me

The solitude of insanity

Absolutely exhaustion to the brim

Unable to care anymore

But one strives on

So Inshallah hope comes soon

Or has it already arrived

Only time will tell

Well Insanity rule over me or will serenity find me

Ever lasting questions

Shall continue onwards