The night

 drifting upon time, as sand dunes cover my thoughts

stopping for a moment, but a small breath in

with a release of a big wind exhale

shall I wander into the nights sky

wondering if this is meant to be

struck the heart tightly, the tears so sorrowful of burdens

I am bitter with the one and only God almighty

here wondering what will come of my soul

shall the sadness conquer the nights whims

here 

there

everywhere  wondering pondering

crying as the tears ever flow into my heart and soul

shall I bear witness that their is but one God

here I am sorrowful at this moment'

Hoping for another smile, wanting nothing but serenity 

So let the darkness be

Hide do not fret

Light will conquer

Always

Restarting

 Falling into the deep abyss

The unknown to the mind

I feel the calm within the storm

Wanting nothing but to breath freely

Free from the unwanted

Streaming down my face, are the tears of sorrow

Will this ever end?

This consent battle within myself

I bend my will, some days are harder than others

Each minute, a small victory

Shall I be free?  Pondering so blissfully

Let it be, yes letting it be

Breathing those deep breaths 

Release within my flesh

Shall I rake the victory?

Only to restart the new canvus each day

Take me to the dreams

Each night, crying myself to sleep

Surely to slumber, within every moment a dream can turn to a nightmare

What the true nightmare was?

Yes its over

Starting over

Start again

Repeat

Go

Be Free

Willing always

the unknown

One way up, one way down

On the railroad

Round and round

Upon chaos is it deemed

Upon insanity

Such a calm place

As the emotions flow up down all around

Intense one moment, frightening to the next

What will the rest of the days be

Well I see

Myself finally

After so many years of subdued emotions

To let it flow

To conquer the fight

As the ever lasting battle never rests

Will I bend so much to break

Shattered glass emptiness

Explosion of rage

Murmurs in the shadows

Well the patterns come

Let it be

They say, why so I can drown in my fears

Losing my way

Trying to cope

Helping others

Ready set breath

1 2 3 breath in hold 3 2 1 exhale

On the bend, round and round

What to send?

Emotions that be

With this world so full of insanity

Yet it be

Here so timely

Upon the sea

Murmuring what

Do they say

Those knocks on the door

No one's there

Here I am breaking

Wanting nothing to stand solid

Never to bend...

streams

Streams of sorrow come to be

Within destiny there is what sadness

Is happiness an illusion indeed

Pondering so suddenly

Upon the edge perhaps so

Over the moon to the sun fledged soul

To overcome the darkness

To reach out for help

To scream if you need to

You are free

Free in this world to suffer indeed

As chaos ruins the world

Happiness falls from the true deeds

Perhaps I show speak to thy Lord

I don't see a point so there's no relief

And life is just a test that fulfill you for the afterlife

Posed to someone who doesn't want to live

To fight all your life to struggle to lose to win

To be content with what you are

As insanity and confusion flow through me

The darkness sweeps in and takes away the Noor

Is it but a flicker within the darkness

Or has it been blown out

Allahu allim

We ponder upon the world you see

As some of us are stuck with strife

Carve your destiny into your soul

To let it all out as the blood flows

Is this the way or is this the illusion

What can we tell what reality is

Is life and happiness but an illusion

Hope is far from here

A disaster to be

Chaos and rage indeed

I seek refuge in the Lord from their cursed Satan

As I plea and plea for all my life you see

I guess this is my destiny

But shouldn't I have the right to know what I want to do

To live or die

Insanity is surely a dangerous path

Only time will tell

what is left with me

As the world turns upside down 

I'm in the chaos you see

I don't know what is light nor darkness I feel it fade for me as I become nothing, but the insanity of the mind in the membrane it is distorted indeed Even confusion sits me to the to go off Medication you see 

I'm feeling my true self indeed and shall you find yourself to the truth

You shall recommend yourself to follow what truth is 

I am solely doing this to save myself perhaps the insanity is my savior 

For that is what I am destined to be schizo bipolar of a mind that's deemed I slither, moving, and who am I am 

Maybe a shadow of the darkness will the darkness consume my heart will 

I give up on this life I want to give up but yet I strive, and do I strive more than those who don't

Those who claim that they are just an Almighty remember so only one deity is worthy of that and that is Allah the one and only worthy of worship is he so let it be 

Let it be within the insanity, maybe I should lock myself up and throw away the key 

I don't know where my mind is to go The delusion is taking over 

The confusion is here 

The chaos has come once again within The cycle

Freestyle rap let go to the rate

 Here's a freestyle devastate your mind you see can you keep it occupied while I speak I'm up to the beat and I don't know what it means I'm insane in the membrane and death insane there's no help out there for me no help for thy I don't know what to do and I cry to God but there is no relief and I just want to die I don't know why I'm like this it just seems to be this way all the time I'm destined to be this way in the insanity way that I'm a fool in the world full of fools but who's the true fool of them that they are truly the fool I would say that they are the wisest ones

List ever date to another rate I'm here almost turning 35 don't know what to do with my life don't want to define what faith is for me but I can't mind that I want to die I don't know if I'm mine maybe I'll just slit my throat petrify Or will it be on there killing myself by the fire and the gasoline burned itself I don't know what way to go you seem I just want out of this world that steam stuck in the mainframe door in the box outside the box and not wanting in don't you know what the mind means here in what is is insanity Be their blessed in my mind from time to time alhamdulillah thanks to God I'm glad I have the friends that I have but some people just be punk ass bitch but ever late to another rate and here we go on going on none keep on striving do good to another build each other up and if the society follows you have each other united we are PS Muslim atheist Christian or a pagan we're all God's creation here we go right now let's go and where are one in humanity let's be free

What Difference

Please let hear me say

I may be a lefty but I support the right

I know that there is truth in both and we both just want our rights

I Casted my vote wanting something different

To know I made no difference at all

Makes me fear the sorrow that comes to be

It doesn't make you right if you believe with sanity

For this world that you see, is chaos indeed

From a free world with free choices

To a monarch

And shall we bow our heads and pray for the old true leader Trudeau

Or shall we fight with dismay

You may be black I may be white you may be straight I may be bisexual

I may be Muslim and you an atheist

We are all human in the end 

Free will indeed

Do not fret if you are right and do not fret if you are wrong

For who knows what is right

To follow your heart solely soul

To find hope within the insanity of the world that comes to be

You will find yourself lost in all this mist

From the corruptions of governments to see

The gangsters that deem

We the people stand so United

We cast our vote in our solitude of hope that we do please our party indeed

As we age our vote may change

Forever so more we just want to be

To be accepted

I'm not racist I'm not ignorant I'm nice kind and right

When people look at me they judge me so 

Either by my physical body or my mentality or my religion so

When I'm just human like the rest of us 

I'm flawed beyond comprehensive

United by my corruption

Finding Bliss within this world

From the joyous smile to the tears of sorrow

To the stomach that starves to the stomach that is full

I find myself walking this path so lonely indeed

I am never alone for I have humanity and God 

Bless us all be that we have tolerance indeed to understand

That what we can't comprehend does not make us wrong

May it ignite in us to another way

To stand your rightly, besides our differences

To fight for freedom

To fight for love

To fight for religion

Always make your own choices

So I bless you be

For taking the time to listen indeed

Do not lose hope for you are never alone