streams

Streams of sorrow come to be

Within destiny there is what sadness

Is happiness an illusion indeed

Pondering so suddenly

Upon the edge perhaps so

Over the moon to the sun fledged soul

To overcome the darkness

To reach out for help

To scream if you need to

You are free

Free in this world to suffer indeed

As chaos ruins the world

Happiness falls from the true deeds

Perhaps I show speak to thy Lord

I don't see a point so there's no relief

And life is just a test that fulfill you for the afterlife

Posed to someone who doesn't want to live

To fight all your life to struggle to lose to win

To be content with what you are

As insanity and confusion flow through me

The darkness sweeps in and takes away the Noor

Is it but a flicker within the darkness

Or has it been blown out

Allahu allim

We ponder upon the world you see

As some of us are stuck with strife

Carve your destiny into your soul

To let it all out as the blood flows

Is this the way or is this the illusion

What can we tell what reality is

Is life and happiness but an illusion

Hope is far from here

A disaster to be

Chaos and rage indeed

I seek refuge in the Lord from their cursed Satan

As I plea and plea for all my life you see

I guess this is my destiny

But shouldn't I have the right to know what I want to do

To live or die

Insanity is surely a dangerous path

Only time will tell

what is left with me

As the world turns upside down 

I'm in the chaos you see

I don't know what is light nor darkness I feel it fade for me as I become nothing, but the insanity of the mind in the membrane it is distorted indeed Even confusion sits me to the to go off Medication you see 

I'm feeling my true self indeed and shall you find yourself to the truth

You shall recommend yourself to follow what truth is 

I am solely doing this to save myself perhaps the insanity is my savior 

For that is what I am destined to be schizo bipolar of a mind that's deemed I slither, moving, and who am I am 

Maybe a shadow of the darkness will the darkness consume my heart will 

I give up on this life I want to give up but yet I strive, and do I strive more than those who don't

Those who claim that they are just an Almighty remember so only one deity is worthy of that and that is Allah the one and only worthy of worship is he so let it be 

Let it be within the insanity, maybe I should lock myself up and throw away the key 

I don't know where my mind is to go The delusion is taking over 

The confusion is here 

The chaos has come once again within The cycle

Freestyle rap let go to the rate

 Here's a freestyle devastate your mind you see can you keep it occupied while I speak I'm up to the beat and I don't know what it means I'm insane in the membrane and death insane there's no help out there for me no help for thy I don't know what to do and I cry to God but there is no relief and I just want to die I don't know why I'm like this it just seems to be this way all the time I'm destined to be this way in the insanity way that I'm a fool in the world full of fools but who's the true fool of them that they are truly the fool I would say that they are the wisest ones

List ever date to another rate I'm here almost turning 35 don't know what to do with my life don't want to define what faith is for me but I can't mind that I want to die I don't know if I'm mine maybe I'll just slit my throat petrify Or will it be on there killing myself by the fire and the gasoline burned itself I don't know what way to go you seem I just want out of this world that steam stuck in the mainframe door in the box outside the box and not wanting in don't you know what the mind means here in what is is insanity Be their blessed in my mind from time to time alhamdulillah thanks to God I'm glad I have the friends that I have but some people just be punk ass bitch but ever late to another rate and here we go on going on none keep on striving do good to another build each other up and if the society follows you have each other united we are PS Muslim atheist Christian or a pagan we're all God's creation here we go right now let's go and where are one in humanity let's be free

What Difference

Please let hear me say

I may be a lefty but I support the right

I know that there is truth in both and we both just want our rights

I Casted my vote wanting something different

To know I made no difference at all

Makes me fear the sorrow that comes to be

It doesn't make you right if you believe with sanity

For this world that you see, is chaos indeed

From a free world with free choices

To a monarch

And shall we bow our heads and pray for the old true leader Trudeau

Or shall we fight with dismay

You may be black I may be white you may be straight I may be bisexual

I may be Muslim and you an atheist

We are all human in the end 

Free will indeed

Do not fret if you are right and do not fret if you are wrong

For who knows what is right

To follow your heart solely soul

To find hope within the insanity of the world that comes to be

You will find yourself lost in all this mist

From the corruptions of governments to see

The gangsters that deem

We the people stand so United

We cast our vote in our solitude of hope that we do please our party indeed

As we age our vote may change

Forever so more we just want to be

To be accepted

I'm not racist I'm not ignorant I'm nice kind and right

When people look at me they judge me so 

Either by my physical body or my mentality or my religion so

When I'm just human like the rest of us 

I'm flawed beyond comprehensive

United by my corruption

Finding Bliss within this world

From the joyous smile to the tears of sorrow

To the stomach that starves to the stomach that is full

I find myself walking this path so lonely indeed

I am never alone for I have humanity and God 

Bless us all be that we have tolerance indeed to understand

That what we can't comprehend does not make us wrong

May it ignite in us to another way

To stand your rightly, besides our differences

To fight for freedom

To fight for love

To fight for religion

Always make your own choices

So I bless you be

For taking the time to listen indeed

Do not lose hope for you are never alone

How the World should be

This world was created with purity

With all the animals and nature within it

To be a gift to humanity

But you may not know

For the last 300 years we have killed a lot of our population of animals and nature itself

We are Muslims are not supposed to do this

For we are the caretakers of this world

Why would we take more than what we could have

That is greed to the worst degree

When you look into a stallions eyes

You see the Bliss The Hope the happiness of being free

To following the natural to Allah

And let us Good deeds be for this not just humanity but for all creation you see

And we do our Good deeds for humanity you see

As it was said some of the smallest of deeds are the best of deeds

If you are walking and you see an animal that is hurt would you help it or keep on walking

As we Muslims we help those who are Muslims as well and humanity itself for we are brothers and sisters within this world

Remember to recycle for there is only one Earth

This fantasy that we can hijack another planet and live in but artificial environment is not a thing for me

Allah did not destined that for me

And when are world becomes the end we may be at fault at that

Because we did nothing to stop

Corrupting the world itself

Humanity you seem somewhat decent

But to the Earth the majority of the world is far from good to it

Allahu Alam

God only knows

I am here being and helping other beings is my way is my life is my destiny

But I will not just help humans you see

I shall help the animals in the creatures of the world and the nature indeed

Cuz this is what is willed for me

But Allah you seem into al qadar is deemed

So follow your book indeed be at the Bible the Torah or the Quran you see they're all message from the one and only Allah you see

This world is not for you to reap

It's for you to protect

To be good to other creatures other than humanity

This is what's needed for us indeed

To humble ourselves enough to help

To set the ego aside

To let Bliss consume allowing happiness to express

Where is your happy place

Is it the Kaaba

Is it the desert

Is it the jungle

Or is it silly man-made things such as Dubai or Las Vegas

Beware of these places

For they take you away the natural path of submission

So let it be let it be

While you here on being recycle indeed

Do you zakat, for this Earth for there is only one

If we destroy Earth where would we go

Would Allah judge us so

For killing a creation such as a planet

For wiping out species

I understand if you're afraid of what you do not understand

But open your heart as you would to Islam

You may learn a thing or two from nature itself

For this is true submission to Allah that is nature itself indeed the animals that breathe in the trees that breathe to the mountain that gives Salam

Such creation is so wondrous indeed

I advise you to protect it the best you can

For there is only one God where the worship and that is Allah you see

So why not follow the commandments of he

And do not reap this world through  tarnished chaotic beings

Let us breathe deep breaths and some of the strength with inside thee

To strive on words like nothing matters

The hardship of the world you see will come with ease

For life is but a struggle a Jihad indeed

And if of life was just an easy test would it be a test at all

Not one journey is the same than another for we are all different inside

So journey on this world and protect it so

Do good deeds not just for humanity but the planet you see

This is what Allah deemed

So plea with your lord indeed

To help you in this insane world you see

As we all have become burdens to our nafs

Najs or not

Be mindful indeed and perhaps you'll find peace within the heart and deed

what you need to find

I wanted to find the source of Truth

So I explored the world outside, within the mind you see

You can find knowledge anywhere

You just have to open your heart

And your mind you see

May you find the truth

There's only one indeed

That is Islam itself

Allah said be so here we are being in this world of chaos

So seek the deen the way indeed

Sometimes you will tumble and fall to your knees

Wondering if there's a God indeed

I was going to sleep not to long ago searching ever so

I find my life within darkness you see from time to time and then again

Because within my religion we teach that life is but a test

And if there was no struggle no Jihad in this test

Wouldn't be much one of the test at all

We strive we learn we seek knowledge

Have you tried to read the Quran with an open heart

Leaving judgment set side you will see the truth

I was but a pagan before

Then I read the Quran

And within each page that went through Reading and searching for the truth

I found that there was only one God and that was Allah indeed

So hope for the best and seeking knowledge always

I'm wandering to the sky that be's

I dare you to look into Islam you see

For it's truly peace for the heart  indeed

So why not check it out for yourself

The true science of a holy book

But to remember the Time when it was revealed

So you caste your judgment according so

And have peace

Surrendering to one God

Wanting nothing more to strive to please to be

Even within this darkness of the world

You will find noor in your heart

Once you find Allah you see

Peace will come indeed

But to be a Muslim you must follow the Quran solely and then the Hadith So...

If you get mixed up with all your questions you see

Go to the source of the one who follows Allah you see

And there you'll find some good old Dawah

For speaking truth is a Muslims deed

To witness our message to bring peace to other people

Do not fret stay calm and rememberance Allah always

tried

I heart rips from my chest, allowing the abyss to sink in

Falling into the ground

Sinking to the emotions as they burn ever so

Seeping through the sand to the bottomless pit of darkness

Wanting nothing more than to be done

Why am I this way?

Will I be okay?

Devastation that stabs the heart

Ready to bleed

What a bloody mess this has become

Dreaming of nothing but death

Knocking on heaven's door

Riding up to cloud 9 and do not defy

Ready is it time

Let's go this time

A time to give up

A time to want to strive to be 

Is long gone

Only now insanity is here

Can I be within this world do you see

Am I so different you do not understand me

I know those around me love me

But I can't help but hate me ever so much

I'm tarnished I'm scarred I'm burned I'm wrecked

And I do surrender to my Lord

Allah who will save all

If you seek it that is

But it does not mean that you will not suffer in this life

Life is but a test but I might fail my test

I can only consume so much hate and disgusting darkness

Before it expels for my mind body and soul

And I do my Dua so lovely indeed

Oh save me Allahu the one and only were there worship

Will I be saved

Here again, chaos near the end

On a rollercoaster around and around

Flesh hanging with the doom, Carnage near and dear

With insanity at the bend

Coming up and around

Swirling mind and emotions whirlwind through me

At times I feel so hopeless

At these times I'm lost

With the brim

Smoking until death

Will I ever win this fight

Against Insanity

Mania ready set go

Running on the railway

Waiting for the trip to end

Chaos ready

My mind is stuck

In a Kaleidoscope vision

As it twirls and whirls of lights to see

Why it ever end

As I age I feel more and more sick

Medication doesn't work for me

All I have is therapy

It's not enough

I'm lost

Amongst the Myst

Within the abyss

As ever emotions, they surely burn

Now the emotions are on over flow

I cannot cope

I want to ready the blade

Heading it up

Until red to match the crimson bliss

I try and try

With the way

Can I stay?

Please Allah save me

labor Day bliss

Here I am wandering the night sky

Waking in pain like no other

Are these whispers who I believe it is

Coming from every direction forward and back

What do I strive for

As the hopelessness rings in my soul

I seek God alone

I've always seeked Allah you see

For he is the one and only above all of humanity and creation you see

Deemed to be the god of us all the one and only the Worthy of worship

He is Allah

The God, Allahu Akbar God is the greatest

Remember to do your Dhkr

Perhaps a dua or two

Stand so silently presenting yourself so brightly

To recite so lightly but some sincerely within the heart it is

Do not fret for the materialistic things around you

Surround yourself with serenity

With Salah indeed

God not needs us to pray for him he does not need anything for he is absolute

But we need Allah most of all

Seems to be the way it seems

As I waiver within the chaos that deemed

Upon insanity

If I'm able to have the concept of be able to say the shahada in complete Insanity

Allahu Alam only God knows

But prepare yourself for judgment Day

Try not to let the najs nafs flow within you

Wake with every step in every speech you say

This is not the way

Worship one and follow the sunnah

Strengthen your eman

This will hold you together

And we all rise to fall again but with this time we have Allah indeed 

A deity such as thee

Allahu

the best medication

The cure for all things that come

From the insanity of the mind

 I see

There's comfort with serenity too

Standing so rightly with my hands on my chest 

To reciting so lightly so brightly

This be the Quran

I fret and fret

But upon the second Rakat

There right there the chaos that's roaming in the heart 

Mind comes to the eye of the storm 

It just stops, this is where serenity is?

Within the pure worship to the one and only Worthy of the worship and that is Allah indeed

As I plea and plea 

Within this world that humanity be's

For another day

Another canvas has begun

Trying to not let the shades blend with the color

Many of my canvases before have flagged down to chaos

But light shall conquer

Even in a flicker of light there is hope

To strive

I know that God loves me 

Or he would not comfort me

He will not send those with good deeds to help me

Be better you see, but it's the self doubt within myself that I Can do To better your self as not many has shown me that they can do any better

As a product of our environment

I shall be at peace

Or me with the one and only

Allahu you see

I repent to God almighty

With sincerity, as he guaranteed this for me

Why, am I selfish

That I struggle with in the test

But we all have our Jihad

And struggle and struggle this is life indeed

Don't be so much like me where I abandon hope and wander in insanity

I strive that is what seems to be

I tried to do better

I still try

And I know that Allah is all merciful and all just and he did not make me this way by mistake

Because I help those around me and maybe that is my purpose

To bring love and peace and good cheer to all creation

That sit stands walks moves or breathes

It all deserves kindness indeed not just humanity

So plea with your lord indeed

Allahu let me see the eye of the storm the calm serenity

And this is with you alone

That Islam is my medicine and I shall be steadfast

still striving

Let's start the path

Let's create our deeds

I'm stuck within the insanity

Up down all around confusion here and there

Rage, anger

Carnage devour

Hate bitterness

Struggle hurt

Losing hope minute by minute

Some of us have the struggle in life

Be the work of the jinns

Or magic

Or mental illness

Mental illness is a thing

Why don't people understand that in modern medicine there is belief that there is such things as schizophrenia

Bipolar, borderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder, pica, anorexia, bulimia

Someone who strives

Get destroys themself at the same time

Wanting nothing more, but to better oneself

So here I am striving to do good deeds

Is this insanity

I do these deeds over and over again not for the reward you see

But it's the best of deeds to help another within this world

And I tried to help myself and I am helping myself and I am getting better but when my episodes happen in mania and a depressive state

I bleed tears from my eyes you see

Destined to be within this Insanity forever

Some lives are harder than others but life is not a test with no challenges

We all struggle and this is our Jihad

For there is struggle within humanities life forever

Within this dunya

So let us breathe

And do good deeds

Let us pray

To lighten the soul

To find serenity, to be balanced

For you not Allah

This is what you need

To love self to be able to love others to be able to allow yourself to surrender to the God Almighty Allah

Bismillah  ar Rahman Raheem

Recite with your heart you see

Be sincere within your destiny

Humble yourself ever so much that is your piety

Charity is the best of deeds

To build another up, to teach that is what we need to do

For the next generation to come you see

So help those younger than you and perhaps older than you 

Strive to help one another

This helps you keep within sanity

But be unique you see

Because each heart is

Peaceful indeed

I am content with me even within insanity

So Allah said be

So here I am striving to be

part two

5 by 6 part 2

For every Muslim to believe they must believe in these articles indeed

A faith you see

This is needed to be complete

The first article indeed could be belief and one deity of monotheism indeed

That we believe in Allah the one and only worthy of worship

The most gracious the most merciful

Beneficial the loving

So many words are named for him

I'm sure many words are still unknown to us that we know

Second article, belief in angels and jinns

As Angels were created by God with no free will and do what God has commanded them to do

And then we come to a curious creature like ourselves with free will

Born of smokeless fire

The jinn, they are just like us you see

They strive they please

Some atheist and some are Muslim and some are Christian

Not all rebel against Allah

So it is a must that we believe in these two so far

Third article, the books the books the books you see, there are meant for us indeed

To have belief in what was revealed to the Jews the Torah indeed

To the distorted version of what the Bible was is the true message that Christians should believe

But they have modern ties the religion so much to go to the desire and not to please Allah indeed

But we still have respect for these such books for they are Revelations of Allah indeed

And we have belief in our own book the Quran you see

Perfection at its Max

You have to believe in this you see

With just these three articles, do you see

Fourth article, believe in the prophets that come forth to us humanity

To show the message of monotheism

From Adam to Noah to Abraham to Solomon to Jesus peace be upon them all

Lastly the belief in the Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him is needed to seal this that he is the seal of the prophets that you see for we do not believe in false deities nor false prophets that come to be

Fifth article, We are preordained in this world

One word Al Qadar

Faith as you see you must believe in this

As it's wondrous indeed and show a light in your heart indeed

To know that you were guided in this insanity

To look for the heart indeed for the not is in all

That is right

Finally made it to the 6th article

And every human every jinn shall meet this day and that itself is the final day

The day Resurrection

To reflect upon your deeds those angels upon your shoulder will scribe a book of your deeds that Allah shall see

And judge you accordingly

But remember Allah is all merciful and all forgiving

So don't forget to repent and Dua your supplication

The dhkr for the remembrance

All these are needed you see to believe

So when you were studying Islam you see

It shall bring on understanding if you read it all

Open your heart and breathe

Let the light 

Conquer the darkness

Please just be within the Ummah

That is what needed for peace

So come on follow me

Better yourself within this insane world we see

To please Allah the one and only worthy of worship

So just breathe and follow your heart with no judgment indeed

We shall see

Inshallah