daring to glide into the comso
beyond nothing but knowing there isnt yet hope
that we find ourselves longing wanting to know the unknown and we find that only one has that
here we be our minds and galaxies that be are haunting me having nothing but a fit scrambled beyond repair
yes I dare to come here wanting needing earning beating into the heart
dare this be what needed so inshallah
we be right upon the deen in this dunya
so do dkhr dua and salat and hope will be near
Scream and shout
To let the chaos out
Upon these deeds
Destined for me, conquer the abyss
Is this a reality?
Murmer here there everywhere
Shine so brightly, chaos of the deed
I am in need, to conquer the darkness
What is needed? Lost within hope
Will I ponder and wander only to patter
Pitter patter yes those patterns
Everywhere there here and where
Company of the bliss thats gone to a bust
Bang boom doom, is there room?
Consusion of the deeds, do I really need
Scattered bursting to the rim
Where I am to go?
Left Right North South
Standing, falling into insanity
Here being, is this right?
Lost but no loser...
Trying to blend in
Trying to mend the bend
There being uncontrolable feeling
Having not one but three muruming
Lost with hope, time to see
What is next?
Try to smile, you need it
I try to shine, but I reckon they murmuring
Getting me so down
Up we go, a hole in somethat that counters
Ready the mask, to breath while I sleep
Oxygen
Breath, sleep, have the melody
In my dreams, I smile everso lightly
Ready to shine beyond the insanity
Waking for the best of deeds
Fighting the chaos in the hurt, letting the monster be
Stuck with me, and I scream every so slightly
Happiness but this, smile but a kindness
Hoping that a deadly deed isnt needed
To let it slumber the beast with us
Let it be, let it be
Where am I?
I find myself lost, on the edge
Wandering into the galaxies
Star sprinkled bliss, ready to show you the way
Walking into the abyss, I'm left here pondering
Shall I shout and shout shout and scream it all out
Deadly deeds have arrived
Countering deaths deadly deed
Blood soak skin, will the flow ever stop
I am here, inside my head screaming for the forces to let me go
I want to be free, I never am
For hope is lost, at the moment dead inside
I reckon
Help me, no one cares
I am stuck in insanity, let that deem whats for me
I scream as the insanity bleeds into thy soul
I ready to let go, why must it be this way
Confusion of the heart mind and soul
Ready set go, another day, and another time
Bliss here there and everywhere
Just got to find a flake or too
I am ready to end this all, but I stop myself
There this time, I will stop
The devourer doesnt listen
To hate self, to maybe love self
To reach out, let go
Happiness is but an illusion of the heart
Depression is real and its ready to deal
Darkness leads to the abyss
Then it sucks thy soul
I am ready to let go
Though I am bounded by my emotions
Shall I rip tear to not care
I swear I do, even with a gaping hole in my soul
Now ready to let go
Please God save me from myself
Lets Go!
I am Lost
Here I am being
Ripping my flesh and consuming
What will come of it
As a million stars scream
As the universe deems
I am here, pondering upon sanity
It always gets me, turning me upside down
Rip tear consume, ready set go
My left arm twitches now, for what
Nothing but the desire, the devouring is here
Ready set go, tick tack on the bend
As the tear drop, a million feeling
Ruptured, readying the blade
To slice and dice
Ready set go, hand me a knife
Ready to slit the flesh and consume
Dirty deeds, ready to feel
Chaos of the heart, needing to bleed
Crimson red bleeding here
Ready set go, I dont know what to do
I fucked
Do we suffer?
Suffering more than other seem to know
Unable to scream, here beyond the bend
Ready to break, shattered beyond repair
All from the words, whispers deeply into my every being
Ready to set the flame, how about a blade or two?
Chaos its right here, smile so blamely
Unable to conquer the demons that be
They whisper so lightly, and I know that they are not right and surely not real
Falling to my knees, begging for mercy
Staring so slightly, and what do we see
A pattern, so does that matter?
Yes please listen to me
They whisper, murming, as I stare so slightly
Pattern here and a pattern there
Boom
I am blind
Literally all I can see is the pattern
Nothing stops this
So, pitter patter lets get at er
Standing, bowing, kneeling, to prostrate
The one and only, yes thats right
Allahu the one
All knowing, all merciful
Thanking God that he has given me some reflief upon this life
Thankful as least, Alhamduillah
Don't fret, it's ok
Alhamduillah for the good and bad
Why does it feel this way?
I tremble flowing with every emotion
Falling to the ground, not knowing the known
This confusion is dreaded, is taring the heart
Is this insanity?
I falling backwards no one to catch me
Not a soul, perhaps I am looking in the wrong places
Perhaps I shall bend my will for thee
Is eman but on and off switch?
Can I find the on switch yet again?
I've gotton up just to rise for you
Oh Lord, you are for me
Allahu Allahu Allahu
I need you, I know you don't need me
Clear as day, that you here for me
So I am not afraid to live in the ummah alone
I know people will always judge
Allahu Allim
I scream in my heart, to break the seal upon my heart
To ready it for him, the one and only Allah
So to say, Please of lord upon thee
Guard me from the insanity and I rise waiting for the athan
Allahu Allahu Allahu Akbar
Save for from the nafs, to create good ones for us all
Inshallah Inshallah inshallah
