holding on

Broken beyond the bend

Unable to cope

Will I breathe so deeply?

Only to suffocate from the overbearing emotions

Wanting nothing but emptiness

Surely to dismiss

Upon this time

Will this be the way?

Hoping for a certain outcome

Wanting nothing but for life to end

Grasping the blade

As it shatters my heart

Will my soul be tarnished?

What will the outcome be

Upon this time

Shall serenity lead to clarity

To bring peace

To the mind and soul

Let one ponder so

Seeking hope

Wanting peace

Seeking refuge

Only to be turned away

By the desires of hate

For self

Am I worthy?

Tarnished ever so

Hoping for serenity

One can only be with patience

For hope to come

Holding to the happiness

The desire to be free

Well this torture stop

Will I seek the lord

What will come to be

So many questions

Only to hope for tomorrow

So it doesn't fade away

Milliseconds of Bliss

Following something unknown

Seems to be deemed

Reaping the desires that be

Unable to control

At times of insanity

Is this me?

So stuck within this list

My heart is drained

Hard within my heart

Wanting nothing but destruction

Maniac running on the brim 

Up down all around

Start again

Repeat

Is this right?

Perhaps not

So I write

To lead a bad desire

To a state of serenity

My heart bleeds but truly needs

That light that's needed

The flickering within the darkness

Let this be

Something perhaps of bliss

Used but a millisecond

What a feeling indeed

Destined for me

Blessed for but a second

Clarity near and dear

To ride out the storm

To tame the beast inside

Seeing things through

Let there be peace of mind in time

Such one can only hope

That is the key for me

Lighting the way

On the bleak path, upon dismay

Care to stay, unable to breathe

So I scream, silently

Cuts so deeply, devouring desires

Shall this reap destruction?

I am me, free to be

Upon this insanity

Let me be

Chorus on the way, let one pray

Darkness reading the room

Waking in the day of night

In a deep cold sweat

Taking the flame to the torch

To light the way, following the Noor

Taking refuge within my serenity

Let me be, worshipping Allah

So be it, even when all are against me

Even myself

I strive truly try

Wanting nothing but bliss

But only to dismiss

Am I worthy?

Upon tomorrow, another way

Path set ahead

Strive, do good

Illusion of the display

Let me pray, perhaps paying the price

To hope for today, so tomorrow doesn't fade away

So let us pray, for hope

To light the way

Familiar uncertainty

Waking in the night

Uncertainty at the peak

It twists and rips within me

This old formilar feeling

I don't know where to go

Falling into doom

What will be?

Upon this time

Middle of the night

Aniexty to the might

Unable to comprehend

Why must this be

Coming back to me

Why must the discomfort control

My heart and soul

I'm lost within my eman

Wanting to just understand

My heart yearns for serenity

Unfortunately the storm goes on

Breaking me beyond the bend

Counting the minutes to the end

Screaming with this destiny

What must come to be

Upon this uncertainty

Holding on to the Noor

As darkness embraces my heart

I am still me

With the darkness that resides in me

The light will always find me

A beacon of hope

That will be

Forever within destiny 

Path found

Here I am wondering

What will be?

Sway with me

As I flow

As the river that be's

Emotions run through me

Destined that be

Chaos that deemed

Let's see

Upon this insanity

Nothing but a dream to be

To find serenity

Dreaming truly a dillusion

Psychotic episode

Chaos comes with me

I am the storm

The maniac wanting something more

Hoping for freedom

Wanting nothing but to find

Hope is what's needed

Shall it be?

Destined for me

Seems to be

Destruction of a disaster

Explosion of nafs

What I want?

What I do?

It's up to me

So I truly need

To find the Peace

What light is meant?

The Noor in heart

Calls you

To the truth

Let it be

To seek the knowledge

To need the peace

Redeem yourself

Call upon the Lord

Allah Almighty

The greatest

Finding hope

Will save myself

So I seek Allah

Always

Even in the dank darkness

There be a flicker of hope

That will save me

Truly let's see

What will come indeed

Frozen my heart

Upon this Day

Shall I gaze upon the frozen water ahead

To walk a path of solitude

Never bring peace to the end

The calm of the serenity within the storm

The blizzard on

The chaos bursting at the brim

Frozen is the water

Opening the way

To find serenity

To let one plea

Perhaps this is sought to be

Within destiny

I stand here wondering

That disaster of plunder

To follow the path

Frozen is the way

Bringing peace near and dear

Follow the way

The only way

Follow the Noor

To fight the darkness

To keep it at Bay

Within serenity

Let me finally breathe so deeply

1 2 3 breathe

Let me breathe

Upon this anxiety

For the deep breaths can save me

An unfamiliar feeling set in stone

Carnivorous is the deed

Unable to feel

Anxiety brings uncertainty

Uncertain of what the future holds

Uncertain of what to do

Standing here within my insanity

In the Infinite culture cycle

Drip drop on the dot

What will come of this?

Suffocating to the max

Unable to comprehend how to breathe so silently so deeply

So 1 2 3 breathe in 4 5 6 breathe out

Repeat

Holding on to hope

That there will be serenity

If one follows their Deen

Perhaps serenity can be sought

Hoping for freedom

Freedom of the emotions that rapidly turn

Swifting in and out swaying so lightly

On the roller coaster of disaster

A maniac on a rampage

Only to feel serenity one moment

Up up the stairs to Cloud 9

Does this define

What reality may be

Upon this time 

Remember to breathe

For that is Hope indeed