War

Here I am being

Upon this time

Bearing all emotions

Beating the drum

The war cry calls

Allahu Akbar

God is the greatest

I ready my blade 

That is one recited so

I reckon I'm ready

To beat this jihad

To have a glorious victory

Having nothing but bliss within society

Heaven knows I'm miserable

But here I am knocking on the door

To my eman

As the door opens

The light flows into me

Giving me courage to overcome the darkness

To break free of the insanity

To finally breathe freely

Dancing

Dancing into the night sky

Making a mess, not knowing what to do

Dancing upon the galaxies

Lovely as it seems to be

As the Aurora calls to you

Shimmering within the night sky ever so

Tranquility comes to be as you dance around

Having nothing but serenity within your heart

You leep with quickly with Bliss

Upon your dancing in your prancing around the Stars

A comet passes by as a shooting star

You wish upon that star that passes

For the night skies she'll stay for serenity is needed

To dance within the sky

Within the Aurora that calls her

She dances so lovely living nothing but absolute bliss

Dancing upon the Stars within the galaxies that be

Destined to dance

Destined to be with Glee

Having Harmony

What is needed

Dance upon your heart and soul

Being a edgewalker to the doom

But as the night calls me

Serenity is with me upon the Aurora that needs me

Dance dance until you have no thing left to do and you fall to your knees not knowing what you need but slumber to come

Let the rest come to be as the sun rises and the dancer goes to sleep to rest until the next night when she prances upon the Galaxy sky

Rebuilding the steps

I am broken they say

I said I am rebuilding

Upon hope this time

As the hour glass of time flows

One step with destined to be

Two steps running to serenity

Three steps free to be

Four steps more I want something more

Five steps calling to thy Lord

Allah save me from myself

Here comes serenity

Bringing peace to my heart and soul

Destined to rebuild

Never giving up

For I am not alone

For Allah is with me

I pray to thee

Thee Almighty

So let it be

Broken and rebuilding

Conquered

As the sun rises

I find myself conquered

But not in dismay

In Serenity's time

The hurt will fade away

Bringing something that has been lost

The hope to overcome the hopelessness

To stop the crimson from flowing

To stop those Snickers in the head

To seek refuge

To need peace

Where to find this indeed

Salah is needed

Allah does not need it he does not need anything 

He's absolute and all knowing

Prayer is for you

As It centers oneself

You feel the noor come in

Breathing so lightly

As one recite so briefly

It seems like seconds go by as you recite

Within the insanity blessed be

Confusion to the max not knowing what to do

I tried to center myself to Allah 

Do not lose my temper to not let the chaos bring destruction

For this is time of serenity

Blessed be in this insanity

Confusion not knowing what to do

But by instinct I do

I Fall to my knees and prostrate 

To the Almighty

Allah I seek You Even in this confusion and abyss of delusion

I find myself with the serenity with you

Finding myself not knowing what to do

To reflect on society to reflect on self to reflect on their Deen

I am here conquering my nafs

And I seek refuge in God always

The Flicker of noor

Flickering within the soul

Is the Noor what one needs

As society turns turn humanity

Here comes a breeze, yes the nafs indeed

The desires mix and blend

One another breaking down

Unable we are to agree

But finally

We find the light

Where you say?

Don't worry it will be okay

Destined to breath

With life

That is from the one only

Allah the most beneficial the most merciful

How do we find Allah?

Quite simple

Find the Haq

Read

Seek

Find the truth

Don't forget

He watches always

But as your accept your qadar

You will brighten

For the best

So let you soul rest with Allah

That is serenity

Alhamdulillah 

Thanks to God

You let me breath

You love me

Even when I hate myself and everything

I find peace with Islam

Within this destiny

For you and them and I

Are brighter than the sun

For Islam is the light

So seek the truth

Open your heart

Be free of the doubts

Bring happiness

Smile don't forget

Striving for Noor

Following this path into the abyss of the forest in the mist

Only to come to a conclusion where the heart resides

Where to find that Noor?

Why do I demand such things to be gone?

Burden so by society I am

I followed the floor

The carpet laid out for me

I follow the path into the night

To arise at dawn ready for the day

To raise my hands and say

Allahu Akbar

Shall I be this way?

Stuck within Bliss

I shall dismiss this darkness that resides

Allowing the light inside

Here I am pondering

Upon time to come soon

Will there ever be an end to all this disaster?

Only time will tell for that to be

So recognize these

Love those who need

Help humanity

Guide one another to the Noor

Upon this day that's risen

I shall call upon my prayer

Let there be peace within my heart

I shall find serenity within this indeed

Ready for a deed

Ready to begin

Ready to start again

Onwards to strive on

Unbalanced

Falling through the wall

Going to the well

Perhaps this is what is meant to be

Standing in the solitude is what we need

So to say this indeed does it mean it's true

Is it calling for attention when one is reaching out

Can one not be sick and reach for help

Standing within the midst of the solitude

Upon Time

Disaster is upon us

The flame is ready

To like something to burn the heat to learn

Painful indeed or no or no what to do what oh no

Am I a fool that I want to do this

Am I right in my mind and I shall dismiss

I am writing my heart out like I have nothing but it is on my sleeve my heart indeed

What we need to see in this reality

Carnage here disaster there up here they're here

1 2 3 4 5 I count them all

Small whispers turned to loud voices not knowing what to do

To listen to them to know if it's meant to be this way

So I ready the blade

What to do indeed

But to be a fool within this world

Foolish indeed 

Perhaps serenity will come

These desires are conquering me

Burdening me

As I wallow in despair

My heart and soul are corrupt

I am but tarnished beyond recognition

To stop to feel to need to want to give to take this is humanity

Upon the day to come as the sun 

Despair seems to come and go

On the roller coaster in the cycle of chaos the Infinity of disaster

Show one see what one will be

In this insanity that needs me

The demands

To the starting line

Upon this time

What demands of us?

What do we need?

Will these things bring serenity?

Ask these questions when we are corrupted

Within our destined desire

We find that we are no match for "He"

Who is this the most supreme the most merciful Allah indeed

Bang was the race on the go

Starting off at a steady flow

As the hurdles begin to come

Somebody struggling to jump over them

But those who matter most are those who strive

Who fall to the ground but get back up

The ones who do not give up

Running to the end 

Wanting nothing but desires to fade

Wanting no happiness no Love no hate nothing

I want to be an empty inside 

 I don't want to feel anymore

Will this ever end as I'm running to the finish line what to do indeed

Shall I reach out to thy Lord and ask for his Mercy

But I find myself bickering with him instead

I Fall to my knees as I almost reached the finish line and what do you do

But solely be

Even in this Insanity that wrecks me

Blessed be this time indeed

For the sanity is here

At the finish line indeed

If you have Sabr

Then perhaps you will overcome what is here

In all that you had in life do we know what it means to be

Perhaps I know what this means

For we are but slaves to our desires but in reality

We are but a slave to Allah

So even in this chaotic deen I have

I still find serenity within me

As I surrender putting my head to the ground and worshiping Allah

Do not give up

Do not hate

Love God

Love self

Love others

We should go by this everyday

Counting my pennies up today

Not knowing if I have enough currency to beat the dismay

Running on a railroad not knowing what to do

Up and down all around all the merry go round and go

Merry go around try a roller coaster up and down all around

The mind goes rapidly not knowing what to do

So once again I Fall to my knees and worship the one and only

The most merciful the most gracious

He who see's the unknown

That is Allah

The one and only

So save me from myself so I may find serenity within this Deen

Blessed be even though the insanity is here blessed be lovely indeed

resurface

Game start

Go!!

Falling into the abyss of darkness

Scraping at the walls wanting to resurface

As the darkness swoops in and covers all that is light

I blade touches the skin so gently so

But so much carnage ever so

The darkness that consumes thy soul

Why must it burden me so?

Once upon a Time when happiness was not an illusion

A time of happiness with the light is the conclusion

Unfortunately this is the delusion of the illusion that happiness cannot be

It seems It's not destined for me

And I scream and I scream within this insanity

Cutting so freely

Wanting nothing more than to break free

Scraping trying to resurface

To consume the light

So the darkness fades away

To come again another day

For this everlasting jihad of mine

I scream and I scream everlasting

So silently in my mind

Shall I cry?

A teardrop to a bloody mess

Taking the torch to ready yourself

Are these the ways?

Shall I dismiss these deeds

Easier said than done indeed

Everlasting Insanity bursting at the brim

Only to have light consume this to bring serenity

So please let it be let it be

Allah said be

So here I am being me ever so slightly with insanity

.... isolation

Where to go?

Up to the bend

Upon to the doom

Into the solitude

The isolation

Fulfilling to the brim of absolution

Destined for thy to be

Stuck in this destined insanity

To be content to be humble

To have patience

Such to strive so

Everlasting

Tears rapidly fall as the insanity breaks

My spirit is broken

I do not know where to go

Here I am lost within the solitude my mind everlasting

Is this insanity

Every single emotion that rip through me

Let's bring the cycle of chaos into the picture

Running at a fork to a road

Which way to go which way to go Up down all around

To let myself scream

To let myself be deemed

Is this destined for me

The solitude of insanity

Absolutely exhaustion to the brim

Unable to care anymore

But one strives on

So Inshallah hope comes soon

Or has it already arrived

Only time will tell

Well Insanity rule over me or will serenity find me

Ever lasting questions

Shall continue onwards

rambles 1 2 3

Having a time of your lives

Not knowing what to despise

Only to be within the Abyss

Chaotic indeed is that what we need

Perhaps one can strive

Plan ahead

For within darkness there will always be light

Falling into chaos not knowing what to do 

Running in the cycle of insanity in this Abyss can I dismiss

Allah I call upon thee

Save me from myself

From the insanity

From The whispers inside me

For the illusions for the delusions are with me

Full of insanity

But striving indeed

Low eman then high

The ever going cycle of humanity

Up and down and around and around here we go 

Falling into the abyss wondering if I will miss what this sanity is

Only to have a glimpse of it one moment

So within the darkness there shall always be noor

I may seem to be weak

But I am still here therefore I am strong

my life to talk my life tick tock

What is my life

I asked myself

I asked my doctor

The answer you see

Why am I still alive

The answer that I received was unsatisfied

I demand to be satisfied to an extent that I can be content

The disaster of deeds that's destined to be

Full of life this insanity

But let it be let it be

Full of bliss maybe next time we'll see

Why am I still alive

Doctor says because you're fun

Fun I say oh yes oh fun fun of insanity fun fun

Confusion to the max with no answers to be heard no answers to be thought of no answers ever

I be knocking at death's door begging for him to let me in

Put the light keeps dragging me back

I just want the darkness to win

But the light keeps knocking

Keeps rapping at the door

Quote The Raven nevermore

On the Enders of the game

Will I ever be sane

Within this destiny that be

Perhaps this is not meant for me this sanity that I seek

Stuck within the chaos of the deed

Am I tarnished as they see

Am I the worst of the worst

Are they right those voices in the head

Here they're here there compliment there insult here here they're here there, there insult more

When will this Insanity be complete

Holding my breath brisking to the end

I am at edgewalker

Am I broken

Do I need fixed

Shall I give up

Or shall I dismiss these feelings

And hold the key

And that is the light

Because one is not afraid to stand alone for Allah is by my side