Is there Room?

Where am I?

Stuck in this chaos of thy mind

Do I express this time?

To let the happiness out

Is there room for this bliss?

What is next

Perhaps I am right tonight

To conquer time, to have reality

I ponder truly to be stuck out of this desire of the blade

For Bliss shall not be dismissed

Until in a few blinks of my eye, my mind is wandering

Into the galaxies verse

Is there room for me?

To be with thy bright light of serenity

I Wish I knew a way to allow this without

The drift, to shift, to jerk, and slice

because that is what leads to both

Control of the desires to end

To be, to know self, to lose self

Until I die a another minute

Here I am being?

Is this what meant to be, within ones fate to be

I don't want to be this way

I never once thought I would make such a journey

Of destruction to grace of kindness

If not for self at least for the betterment of humanity

Is there room for me?

To be happy with glee

To feel lonely and be

To conquer the wreck

Is this reality?

Perhaps it can be

It depends on the mind

If it ponders within time, how to feel and be

is this whats meant.....

A ponder

Allahu allim
I'm here again
pondering upon time
Can I barely reach the surface
Allahu allim
I call out
Only one answers me
deemed for us
demmed for you and me
Bliss surely not to dismiss
Down and not right
I drift
To sink in the dank darkness
Shifting until the mania sets in
Rapid emptiness
they say
what is ment to be
I am Me
Prfect as I can be
Even within the insanity
Perhaps
this is right
Upon these days
Allahu Akbar
I am with you God almighty
Save me from my self
Make this my hope
Allahu allim
Why do I suffer
only to suffer more
I here freedom is here
Do I choose?
Seems that way
inshallah its get better
because darknesss is winning
and bliss barely surfaces
inshallah ameen

Freedom

Where do I go from here
I am at a new beginning
Powder on my face
Bring a smile to my teeth
Care to bare these feelings
Upon this time
Dare not to fret
Care to be
beyond the insanity
Free the mind
Upon this time
I am free
To be locked in Clarity
Far from the insane in the membrane
To think beyond those deadly deeds
I am here
Ready for anything
Bare this feelings
One by one
Does this define
What am I?
Is the chaos near?
Far from me
I Pray
To have faith
To be
Away I See
Beyond the reality
of thy mind
Do I see
What wonders hold for me
In this new path
New hope
New rifts
I am free
Finally

time to break

my heart is open
as each emotion is felt
I drop to the floor screaming for it all to end
I hear small whispers
of memories long forgotten
reaching to the surface
scratching to get out
where am I
far from the bliss
even the abyss
my heart is shattered
all this emotions
run a current throughout me
am I stuck?
will I be alright
I scream
Beyond what is reality
I'm lost
where am I?
what's next?
can I conquer myself
as each tear
ruptures my sanity
I am me
Beyond what seems to be
I reckon what is right
is beyond the Bliss
farther than the abyss
what is next?

shall I leap
shall I feel
what is right
Beyond the fight

I stand
as a being
within reality
breaking my heart
as each memory
hurts so
why so much pain
must be endered
what will time tell
this tale to come

Sanity

Where am I?
Lost upon time
Perhaps it's time to ponder
Is this right?
My steps upon the sands of the hourglass
Beckon that the light is right
What shall I do?
What am I?
Shall I loosen my grip
On this reality to be
Out of the insanity
To the Bliss
Do not dismiss
For it's attainable
Work hard
Have I
I'm here aren't I
Shall the reaper
Take my soul
I feel empty
Beyond what is right
Bliss is here
Beyond my reach
Darkness
Light
The ultimate fight
For my soul tonight
Shall the devil
Enter my spirit
To cut
To burn
To destroy
To devour
This is what feels right
What is right
They is the light
Allah
God he is right
Upon this night
To bring dua
I scream
Beyond what is here
To ponder
To wonder
And once again wander

When we are here

Sometimes we find ourselves
Lost
Consumed with all emotion
We find that our worries
Are overbearing
Some find our plates so full

We can barely move from each burden
As it twisted our will
We are broken
Is it Beyond repair?
Unable to cope

Do we resort to our desires
To taste Bliss
But a second
Can turn to a eternity
Of hopelessness

What must we do?
When we have lost ourselves

Write my heart out
I am me
To cut is my serenity
Is this wrong?
It seems so right
As the Crimson Bliss is to dismiss

Here we are
Done
Lost
Found
Here
There

Until the day ends
We are here
But when the new sunrise
Is here
Do we wander?

We may seem lost

But United we are
Even when all chaos
Is near
A helping hand
Will be there

Repair

Morning sunrise
let me be tarnished
beyond repair
that's a start to this day
upon my heart
does it beat
I breath
blowing out that flame
charred flesh
here I come
Unable to cope
so I resort to a new way

here I am
charred to a bit
unable to cope so i set
what is next?
What will happen next?

I pray
Serenity is but temporary
that bliss is far from me

To blister and bubble
to do this entirety
I am me
stuck in chaos
unable to cope

So that flame dances along the soft skin

what is right?

Everything is wrong?

Here I am
Falling into the pit
not able to cope
so I be
within this destiny
let me be