Repair

Morning sunrise
let me be tarnished
beyond repair
that's a start to this day
upon my heart
does it beat
I breath
blowing out that flame
charred flesh
here I come
Unable to cope
so I resort to a new way

here I am
charred to a bit
unable to cope so i set
what is next?
What will happen next?

I pray
Serenity is but temporary
that bliss is far from me

To blister and bubble
to do this entirety
I am me
stuck in chaos
unable to cope

So that flame dances along the soft skin

what is right?

Everything is wrong?

Here I am
Falling into the pit
not able to cope
so I be
within this destiny
let me be

Beyond Reality

I feel as though I'm a burden
Am I worked my worthless?
Are they right
Shall I fight for what's right
My mind is corrupted
Beyond time
Perhaps when I do the deadly deed
Maybe some silence for once
I'm stuck
Down right chaotic
I am unable to cope

I'm stuck here
So called safe zone
I wreck my every being
Stuck in the insanity
Am I free?
To be me
Stuck in the abyss
Trying to scrape by
Up the wrecked walls
Up to Cloud 9
Beyond time
Is this bliss?
Do I miss?
Beyond reality
Above the abyss
Have I left this plain?
Am I dead
Do I dread?
To fall to reality
In today's society
I am here
In the safe zone
Only to be
Stuck in insanity
Am I free?
To be me...

Chaos of the Heart

Here I am
Upon the end
On a railroad to the end
Hit a road block
Here I am
Standing near the edge
Ready my blade
Here I come
Until fate arises
I am here
For this time
I am done
No more fighting no more hate
No more emptiness
I'm dead
Time to tell
To confess
I am right?
Within this night
Upon this time
I am safe
I confess that I can't escape
Perhaps this will pass
Only to arise
Hold my breath
To pass out
Falling into darkness
Upon this night
I'm finished
If I was not here
I would be dead
Upon this time
I am dead
I am angry
I am free
To be me
In this insanity
The chaos is here
In thy heart
Rip tear rip
I'm in pain
The to fret
Upon this day

Deadly deed

Sitting here pondering upon the day
Wondering into thy mind
Shall I take thy life
It's not worth while
Upon the starry sky do I deny
As I feel this frustration of the times
For this surely is the time
Did not deny
I shall do
A dirty deed
With the insanity
I'm stuck in a rut
What must I do
Shall I feel
These emotions rapture my heart
Shall I be redeemed
Within the insanity
Of my mind
I do not deny
Within thy heart
Do I breath
My final breath
I suffocate to the max
On the railroad to the end
Shall I do this dirty deed
Until I breath
Shall I be...

Losing but wanting to live

Darkness has clouded my heart
Unable to cope
The rage goes on
What is the point?
What is wrong?
Am I in the right
In this night
Is it worth it
Are they right?
Can no one accept me
Tick tock tick tock
The hourglass of Life goes on
As the sand turns the tide
I'm lost within the rage
And with that the tears burn me ever so
And the voices burden me evermore
I'm downright gone
Into the abyss of darkness
Truly this night is not the night
Not tonight for light
Will darkness conquer my soul
Shroud the darkness Within
Give in they say
Am I worthless?
Shall I do the deed?
Within this insanity
I'm lost within the abyss of the mist
To fight the darkness or to conquer the heart
What is right?
In this night
Knock knock on hearts door
Blow the candle out
The darkness shrouding the light
Unable to cope
I write
I want the blade
I want the flame
I want deaths door
What is the point of no one can accept me for me
I'm within this insanity
Chaos is here
For this time in the abyss
Shall I set the list
Within the mist
Take the pill
To be calm and chill
To recognize
What is wrong
What is correct
To cope
To hope
To win the war

Almost Gone

It builds up
So much
I'm about to explode
Take the blade to my skin
Cut the life line
I'm  near the end
Unable to comprehend
what is in the right
Am I wrong?
Am I near the right?
Shall I fight?
I'm defeated
I cope
but its no longer manageable
I burn
To turn the tide
As it moves
inside and out
until the night is here
I'm nearly gone
nearly dead
is this truth
am I right?
Perhaps not tonight
perhaps another night
be prepared for a fight
for there will be a fright
in the night
until there is nothing left
I'm on my way
to the end
What is the point
The insanity overbears
nothing helps
I'm lost
I'm gone
I'm dead
I'm free
Finally...