MemBrain

Crazy in the membrane
Can i comprehend
What is here
Now above the mist
Shall I take thee leap
Of destiny
Near and Dear
I'm left
Sipping on bliss
Sucking in the chaos
What shall be dismissed
I feel queasy in here
Bout to explode
Am I right?
Beyond what seems
This must be insanity
Here I am
Reckless
Beyond what is right
Crazy on the outside
Wanting nothing more than serenity...

Whats next?

To conquer the darkness
So I can adjust
What will be destined for me
Beyond this reality
Illusions can be a must
To Take me beyond my deeds
To What is desired

A place of serenity
Where the worries of anxiety disappear
Fears of all kinds never fear
We be sipping on bliss
Not Letting the chaos in
For this is serenity

Just for moment

Then back to insanity
Where Fear rules my every being

I still smile
For I am free to BE

Sunkissed

Shine of bright
Star that represents me
To arise in the morning

Gently raising into thy sky to be

Just be
Crimson light to be within its destiny

Creation seeks thee

God Almighty brought me to be

Without Allahu I would not shine

Allahu
Remember to say salaam to thee
Crimson be

To set in the west
Rising in the east
Lay to rest when I rest
Rising with thee
From the east you see
Orange bliss, a rash of pink clear Sky's ahead
For the sunshine shall rule the day
Ever more Ever so

What have I found

Where to go?
So many of possibility to be
Near to defeat
Upon the staircase what is meant for me?
To gaze upon sanity
Where is it next to be, standing in the star gazed bliss
Sinking into desire
melting into the chaos
is this what meant for you and I?
Bring me close to my spirit
I call as you whisper into my heart
Aoothu billah mina shayton ajeem
Oh Allah
Safe me from my nafs
They burden my heart, to sink into the chaos
Bismillah ar rahman ar rahmeen
Here I am shifted once again
up down side to side
here i am being
caught up with the bliss sending me into a chaotic state
What will happen
In the coming days
if only medication was a must
until the question that answered its you and I
Allahu Allahu Allahu
Please hold me
Guide me
Give me shifa
Inshallah
Ameen
what is next?
its time to face
What is here
next to my heart
lets just breath upon sanity
for but a moment
in this bliss
comprehend not life but bliss, to bring the nafs to justice
What is happening?
I am right upon what I say
You shall not mention this
Aoothu billah mina shayton ajeem
Bismillah ar rahman ar raheem

Sane far from me

I am high within the stoned sky
I feel those damn emotions move through me
Driving me to insanity
Rapid emotions defer me to use tools sharps within my mind within reality
The mind has deflated from the expansion
Twist turn many emotions rip into me
My flesh is a burden
I don't mean to be a burden
Though I feel I am becoming one
Help me I scream silently
Slice dice crystal clear skin
Causing nothing but destruction
Feeling as though you can't win
So I write
But cut burn consume devour me within
BPD why must you devastate my sanity
Hello I am me
Free to be me
Even with my insanity
I shall fight
Don't just fight
But conquer
Up in that sky emptiness defers me to rapidly destroy me
Free to be me
Don't hate me
Help me pity me kill me
Unknown for now
Knock knock on heaven's door
Failing humanity
I breath
To break me
Let's break them
Cut away the future
Let burn our bridges
Here I am
Standing alone but a metaphor for I'm surrounded yet loneliness happens to me
Fear of my insanity
I breath
Touch
Cut
Burn
Free to be me in my insanity