Emotional

So shaken, ripped into the bend

As they flow, and rip through me

As each one, conquers bliss

Fallen angel unable to comprehend

To a write love on the arms

To bring peace to mind

I scream so silently

Will the emotions ever end

Lobotomy up my mind

I don't we want to feel

I scream on the inside

Smiling my fake smile

Remember we are here

Empaths wants nothing of emotions

Demotions ready 

Will conquer the emotions?

Cutting into the flesh

Will that ever end?

Here living with insanity

what to do

We start the day at dawn

Calling you to pray are the song birds awaking 

For they pray with you

So follow the way

We start with Bismillah before we rise

To start the day, smile inside and out

Life is a test

We strive

So start out the door

Shining so brightly

For Allah is with you

You are never alone

For Allah is with you

Don't be afraid of the unknown

Don't fret, want to know

Say the shahada (Arabic)

What makes this world go around

Kindness and good deeds

Let them overcome the bad deeds

You will feel better inshallah

We reap at what we presented

Represent the way

That is Islam

We strive always for Allah

To please him

Watch your actions

They be recorded bad on the left

On the right is the good

Those angel's will present this book to Allah 

On judgement day

So repent

For Allah loves you

Fear him we do

For he is Almighty

Allah. Allah

Make me strong

So I will conquer the darkness

To let the Noor in

To do good deeds

To present our actions

We learn from example

Follow the waaaay

In this Deen

With the Peace

Of this life

Let me tell you the way

Of happiness and serenity

Welcome this hope

Yes meant for humanity

Oh let us see

Beyond the darkness of the unclean world

For bad deeds seem to pile more than good

Fret not, there is a way

Repent your see

To who

But

The Almighty the Allah you know him

He has been with you

Even in the bleakest night

Here is there with you and I

You may fear him

To be expected for he is the one and only Creator you see

That is Allah

Destined for humanity

We be here, seeking purpose

It's up to us

To better our selves

Working hard in this dunya

We strive to please

Not self the corrupted creation

Do not stray far, you may lose your way

Follow the Deen

Be with the ummah

We love you

You need Allah

We are his servants

We are but slaves to him

Allah be with me always

To say dawah is better by actions

Open your eyes

Live you life

For Allah

Blessed be

Following the way with Islam

The only way

Here I am

Beating heart

Wanting to find serenity, is this is meant to be

I must surrender

To seek refuge in Allah the Almighty

Blessed be within the insanity

Will I ever be free of the tarnished soul

I want to strive to please Allah the one and only

Never leave me

Increase my eman inshallah

Does this mean with this destiny that I'm meant to Breath deep breaths

To seek refuge from the chaos

That burdens me so

I walk destructive ways

Waking up with insanity

Blessed be I am me

A full creation of Allah

Thank you for to This chance 

Blessed be within this Deen

Follow the way

Islam the only way

wanting freedom

Hate driven

Around the chaos

To breath in desire

Destruction at its best

I'm here, with the blade

Shall I let it all out

To slice so hard

To see the crimsom flow

What shall I do

Shall I rest eternally

Let it be

Darkness inside me

He breaths his darkness

As he needs

Dare he heed

Ah save me

Oh Allah almighty

I listen so silently

I'm free

I hate myself

I want to die

Will I ever be free

Keeping

Broken

Wanting more

Striving to arrive

To die upon the day

To arise upon Salah

Let us pray, mend the way

Today for tomorrow

Upon this time

Shall I scream upon my destiny

I waiver but I strive

With God intention

Blessed it be

Alhamduillah

That is what I truly needed

To find serenity

Surrendering self

Mind soul nafs

Let yourself be

Blessed within the Noor of the Almighty

The all knowing, all merciful

The most just

Allah the one and only

Allahu Akbar

Let it be

Serenity within self

So we can be humbled

Let it be

failing

Falling into the abyss

Letting the sorrow consume

Hoping for something to end

Shall it be My Life, One would question

As each emotion trips down my face

As the tears bring despair to one's heart

Loneliness it seems to be just around the bend

And what shall I conquer then

Shall I stand tall beating my heart ever so

Wanting nothing but to conquer the insanity

And as the tears stripped down the mind seems to fall into chaos

Not wanting not needing not getting

Perhaps it is time

For the end to come

One can only wait for that day to come

Until that day comes the fight goes on in the never-ending war

And I bear my chest and open my heart as I wear it on my sleeve

As my emotions conquer my heart and soul, humanity shall not bend my will

To die a thousand times only to live once what will come in the future

little one lost

Do you look to the night skies?

Wondering if we ponder about you

You were so little

When we said good bye

Miss you little one

You must be so big

I wish you were never taken

Your mother lost you

The Calvert's need you

We think of you

Wondering what world it be if you stayed

Tears till down my cheek

Know you are loved and missed

Little one now so big

Maybe an a teen now

I hope you found a forever home

Miss you maytah love always

The night

 drifting upon time, as sand dunes cover my thoughts

stopping for a moment, but a small breath in

with a release of a big wind exhale

shall I wander into the nights sky

wondering if this is meant to be

struck the heart tightly, the tears so sorrowful of burdens

I am bitter with the one and only God almighty

here wondering what will come of my soul

shall the sadness conquer the nights whims

here 

there

everywhere  wondering pondering

crying as the tears ever flow into my heart and soul

shall I bear witness that their is but one God

here I am sorrowful at this moment'

Hoping for another smile, wanting nothing but serenity 

So let the darkness be

Hide do not fret

Light will conquer

Always

Restarting

 Falling into the deep abyss

The unknown to the mind

I feel the calm within the storm

Wanting nothing but to breath freely

Free from the unwanted

Streaming down my face, are the tears of sorrow

Will this ever end?

This consent battle within myself

I bend my will, some days are harder than others

Each minute, a small victory

Shall I be free?  Pondering so blissfully

Let it be, yes letting it be

Breathing those deep breaths 

Release within my flesh

Shall I rake the victory?

Only to restart the new canvus each day

Take me to the dreams

Each night, crying myself to sleep

Surely to slumber, within every moment a dream can turn to a nightmare

What the true nightmare was?

Yes its over

Starting over

Start again

Repeat

Go

Be Free

Willing always

the unknown

One way up, one way down

On the railroad

Round and round

Upon chaos is it deemed

Upon insanity

Such a calm place

As the emotions flow up down all around

Intense one moment, frightening to the next

What will the rest of the days be

Well I see

Myself finally

After so many years of subdued emotions

To let it flow

To conquer the fight

As the ever lasting battle never rests

Will I bend so much to break

Shattered glass emptiness

Explosion of rage

Murmurs in the shadows

Well the patterns come

Let it be

They say, why so I can drown in my fears

Losing my way

Trying to cope

Helping others

Ready set breath

1 2 3 breath in hold 3 2 1 exhale

On the bend, round and round

What to send?

Emotions that be

With this world so full of insanity

Yet it be

Here so timely

Upon the sea

Murmuring what

Do they say

Those knocks on the door

No one's there

Here I am breaking

Wanting nothing to stand solid

Never to bend...

streams

Streams of sorrow come to be

Within destiny there is what sadness

Is happiness an illusion indeed

Pondering so suddenly

Upon the edge perhaps so

Over the moon to the sun fledged soul

To overcome the darkness

To reach out for help

To scream if you need to

You are free

Free in this world to suffer indeed

As chaos ruins the world

Happiness falls from the true deeds

Perhaps I show speak to thy Lord

I don't see a point so there's no relief

And life is just a test that fulfill you for the afterlife

Posed to someone who doesn't want to live

To fight all your life to struggle to lose to win

To be content with what you are

As insanity and confusion flow through me

The darkness sweeps in and takes away the Noor

Is it but a flicker within the darkness

Or has it been blown out

Allahu allim

We ponder upon the world you see

As some of us are stuck with strife

Carve your destiny into your soul

To let it all out as the blood flows

Is this the way or is this the illusion

What can we tell what reality is

Is life and happiness but an illusion

Hope is far from here

A disaster to be

Chaos and rage indeed

I seek refuge in the Lord from their cursed Satan

As I plea and plea for all my life you see

I guess this is my destiny

But shouldn't I have the right to know what I want to do

To live or die

Insanity is surely a dangerous path

Only time will tell

what is left with me

As the world turns upside down 

I'm in the chaos you see

I don't know what is light nor darkness I feel it fade for me as I become nothing, but the insanity of the mind in the membrane it is distorted indeed Even confusion sits me to the to go off Medication you see 

I'm feeling my true self indeed and shall you find yourself to the truth

You shall recommend yourself to follow what truth is 

I am solely doing this to save myself perhaps the insanity is my savior 

For that is what I am destined to be schizo bipolar of a mind that's deemed I slither, moving, and who am I am 

Maybe a shadow of the darkness will the darkness consume my heart will 

I give up on this life I want to give up but yet I strive, and do I strive more than those who don't

Those who claim that they are just an Almighty remember so only one deity is worthy of that and that is Allah the one and only worthy of worship is he so let it be 

Let it be within the insanity, maybe I should lock myself up and throw away the key 

I don't know where my mind is to go The delusion is taking over 

The confusion is here 

The chaos has come once again within The cycle

Freestyle rap let go to the rate

 Here's a freestyle devastate your mind you see can you keep it occupied while I speak I'm up to the beat and I don't know what it means I'm insane in the membrane and death insane there's no help out there for me no help for thy I don't know what to do and I cry to God but there is no relief and I just want to die I don't know why I'm like this it just seems to be this way all the time I'm destined to be this way in the insanity way that I'm a fool in the world full of fools but who's the true fool of them that they are truly the fool I would say that they are the wisest ones

List ever date to another rate I'm here almost turning 35 don't know what to do with my life don't want to define what faith is for me but I can't mind that I want to die I don't know if I'm mine maybe I'll just slit my throat petrify Or will it be on there killing myself by the fire and the gasoline burned itself I don't know what way to go you seem I just want out of this world that steam stuck in the mainframe door in the box outside the box and not wanting in don't you know what the mind means here in what is is insanity Be their blessed in my mind from time to time alhamdulillah thanks to God I'm glad I have the friends that I have but some people just be punk ass bitch but ever late to another rate and here we go on going on none keep on striving do good to another build each other up and if the society follows you have each other united we are PS Muslim atheist Christian or a pagan we're all God's creation here we go right now let's go and where are one in humanity let's be free

What Difference

Please let hear me say

I may be a lefty but I support the right

I know that there is truth in both and we both just want our rights

I Casted my vote wanting something different

To know I made no difference at all

Makes me fear the sorrow that comes to be

It doesn't make you right if you believe with sanity

For this world that you see, is chaos indeed

From a free world with free choices

To a monarch

And shall we bow our heads and pray for the old true leader Trudeau

Or shall we fight with dismay

You may be black I may be white you may be straight I may be bisexual

I may be Muslim and you an atheist

We are all human in the end 

Free will indeed

Do not fret if you are right and do not fret if you are wrong

For who knows what is right

To follow your heart solely soul

To find hope within the insanity of the world that comes to be

You will find yourself lost in all this mist

From the corruptions of governments to see

The gangsters that deem

We the people stand so United

We cast our vote in our solitude of hope that we do please our party indeed

As we age our vote may change

Forever so more we just want to be

To be accepted

I'm not racist I'm not ignorant I'm nice kind and right

When people look at me they judge me so 

Either by my physical body or my mentality or my religion so

When I'm just human like the rest of us 

I'm flawed beyond comprehensive

United by my corruption

Finding Bliss within this world

From the joyous smile to the tears of sorrow

To the stomach that starves to the stomach that is full

I find myself walking this path so lonely indeed

I am never alone for I have humanity and God 

Bless us all be that we have tolerance indeed to understand

That what we can't comprehend does not make us wrong

May it ignite in us to another way

To stand your rightly, besides our differences

To fight for freedom

To fight for love

To fight for religion

Always make your own choices

So I bless you be

For taking the time to listen indeed

Do not lose hope for you are never alone

How the World should be

This world was created with purity

With all the animals and nature within it

To be a gift to humanity

But you may not know

For the last 300 years we have killed a lot of our population of animals and nature itself

We are Muslims are not supposed to do this

For we are the caretakers of this world

Why would we take more than what we could have

That is greed to the worst degree

When you look into a stallions eyes

You see the Bliss The Hope the happiness of being free

To following the natural to Allah

And let us Good deeds be for this not just humanity but for all creation you see

And we do our Good deeds for humanity you see

As it was said some of the smallest of deeds are the best of deeds

If you are walking and you see an animal that is hurt would you help it or keep on walking

As we Muslims we help those who are Muslims as well and humanity itself for we are brothers and sisters within this world

Remember to recycle for there is only one Earth

This fantasy that we can hijack another planet and live in but artificial environment is not a thing for me

Allah did not destined that for me

And when are world becomes the end we may be at fault at that

Because we did nothing to stop

Corrupting the world itself

Humanity you seem somewhat decent

But to the Earth the majority of the world is far from good to it

Allahu Alam

God only knows

I am here being and helping other beings is my way is my life is my destiny

But I will not just help humans you see

I shall help the animals in the creatures of the world and the nature indeed

Cuz this is what is willed for me

But Allah you seem into al qadar is deemed

So follow your book indeed be at the Bible the Torah or the Quran you see they're all message from the one and only Allah you see

This world is not for you to reap

It's for you to protect

To be good to other creatures other than humanity

This is what's needed for us indeed

To humble ourselves enough to help

To set the ego aside

To let Bliss consume allowing happiness to express

Where is your happy place

Is it the Kaaba

Is it the desert

Is it the jungle

Or is it silly man-made things such as Dubai or Las Vegas

Beware of these places

For they take you away the natural path of submission

So let it be let it be

While you here on being recycle indeed

Do you zakat, for this Earth for there is only one

If we destroy Earth where would we go

Would Allah judge us so

For killing a creation such as a planet

For wiping out species

I understand if you're afraid of what you do not understand

But open your heart as you would to Islam

You may learn a thing or two from nature itself

For this is true submission to Allah that is nature itself indeed the animals that breathe in the trees that breathe to the mountain that gives Salam

Such creation is so wondrous indeed

I advise you to protect it the best you can

For there is only one God where the worship and that is Allah you see

So why not follow the commandments of he

And do not reap this world through  tarnished chaotic beings

Let us breathe deep breaths and some of the strength with inside thee

To strive on words like nothing matters

The hardship of the world you see will come with ease

For life is but a struggle a Jihad indeed

And if of life was just an easy test would it be a test at all

Not one journey is the same than another for we are all different inside

So journey on this world and protect it so

Do good deeds not just for humanity but the planet you see

This is what Allah deemed

So plea with your lord indeed

To help you in this insane world you see

As we all have become burdens to our nafs

Najs or not

Be mindful indeed and perhaps you'll find peace within the heart and deed

what you need to find

I wanted to find the source of Truth

So I explored the world outside, within the mind you see

You can find knowledge anywhere

You just have to open your heart

And your mind you see

May you find the truth

There's only one indeed

That is Islam itself

Allah said be so here we are being in this world of chaos

So seek the deen the way indeed

Sometimes you will tumble and fall to your knees

Wondering if there's a God indeed

I was going to sleep not to long ago searching ever so

I find my life within darkness you see from time to time and then again

Because within my religion we teach that life is but a test

And if there was no struggle no Jihad in this test

Wouldn't be much one of the test at all

We strive we learn we seek knowledge

Have you tried to read the Quran with an open heart

Leaving judgment set side you will see the truth

I was but a pagan before

Then I read the Quran

And within each page that went through Reading and searching for the truth

I found that there was only one God and that was Allah indeed

So hope for the best and seeking knowledge always

I'm wandering to the sky that be's

I dare you to look into Islam you see

For it's truly peace for the heart  indeed

So why not check it out for yourself

The true science of a holy book

But to remember the Time when it was revealed

So you caste your judgment according so

And have peace

Surrendering to one God

Wanting nothing more to strive to please to be

Even within this darkness of the world

You will find noor in your heart

Once you find Allah you see

Peace will come indeed

But to be a Muslim you must follow the Quran solely and then the Hadith So...

If you get mixed up with all your questions you see

Go to the source of the one who follows Allah you see

And there you'll find some good old Dawah

For speaking truth is a Muslims deed

To witness our message to bring peace to other people

Do not fret stay calm and rememberance Allah always

tried

I heart rips from my chest, allowing the abyss to sink in

Falling into the ground

Sinking to the emotions as they burn ever so

Seeping through the sand to the bottomless pit of darkness

Wanting nothing more than to be done

Why am I this way?

Will I be okay?

Devastation that stabs the heart

Ready to bleed

What a bloody mess this has become

Dreaming of nothing but death

Knocking on heaven's door

Riding up to cloud 9 and do not defy

Ready is it time

Let's go this time

A time to give up

A time to want to strive to be 

Is long gone

Only now insanity is here

Can I be within this world do you see

Am I so different you do not understand me

I know those around me love me

But I can't help but hate me ever so much

I'm tarnished I'm scarred I'm burned I'm wrecked

And I do surrender to my Lord

Allah who will save all

If you seek it that is

But it does not mean that you will not suffer in this life

Life is but a test but I might fail my test

I can only consume so much hate and disgusting darkness

Before it expels for my mind body and soul

And I do my Dua so lovely indeed

Oh save me Allahu the one and only were there worship

Will I be saved

Here again, chaos near the end

On a rollercoaster around and around

Flesh hanging with the doom, Carnage near and dear

With insanity at the bend

Coming up and around

Swirling mind and emotions whirlwind through me

At times I feel so hopeless

At these times I'm lost

With the brim

Smoking until death

Will I ever win this fight

Against Insanity

Mania ready set go

Running on the railway

Waiting for the trip to end

Chaos ready

My mind is stuck

In a Kaleidoscope vision

As it twirls and whirls of lights to see

Why it ever end

As I age I feel more and more sick

Medication doesn't work for me

All I have is therapy

It's not enough

I'm lost

Amongst the Myst

Within the abyss

As ever emotions, they surely burn

Now the emotions are on over flow

I cannot cope

I want to ready the blade

Heading it up

Until red to match the crimson bliss

I try and try

With the way

Can I stay?

Please Allah save me

labor Day bliss

Here I am wandering the night sky

Waking in pain like no other

Are these whispers who I believe it is

Coming from every direction forward and back

What do I strive for

As the hopelessness rings in my soul

I seek God alone

I've always seeked Allah you see

For he is the one and only above all of humanity and creation you see

Deemed to be the god of us all the one and only the Worthy of worship

He is Allah

The God, Allahu Akbar God is the greatest

Remember to do your Dhkr

Perhaps a dua or two

Stand so silently presenting yourself so brightly

To recite so lightly but some sincerely within the heart it is

Do not fret for the materialistic things around you

Surround yourself with serenity

With Salah indeed

God not needs us to pray for him he does not need anything for he is absolute

But we need Allah most of all

Seems to be the way it seems

As I waiver within the chaos that deemed

Upon insanity

If I'm able to have the concept of be able to say the shahada in complete Insanity

Allahu Alam only God knows

But prepare yourself for judgment Day

Try not to let the najs nafs flow within you

Wake with every step in every speech you say

This is not the way

Worship one and follow the sunnah

Strengthen your eman

This will hold you together

And we all rise to fall again but with this time we have Allah indeed 

A deity such as thee

Allahu

the best medication

The cure for all things that come

From the insanity of the mind

 I see

There's comfort with serenity too

Standing so rightly with my hands on my chest 

To reciting so lightly so brightly

This be the Quran

I fret and fret

But upon the second Rakat

There right there the chaos that's roaming in the heart 

Mind comes to the eye of the storm 

It just stops, this is where serenity is?

Within the pure worship to the one and only Worthy of the worship and that is Allah indeed

As I plea and plea 

Within this world that humanity be's

For another day

Another canvas has begun

Trying to not let the shades blend with the color

Many of my canvases before have flagged down to chaos

But light shall conquer

Even in a flicker of light there is hope

To strive

I know that God loves me 

Or he would not comfort me

He will not send those with good deeds to help me

Be better you see, but it's the self doubt within myself that I Can do To better your self as not many has shown me that they can do any better

As a product of our environment

I shall be at peace

Or me with the one and only

Allahu you see

I repent to God almighty

With sincerity, as he guaranteed this for me

Why, am I selfish

That I struggle with in the test

But we all have our Jihad

And struggle and struggle this is life indeed

Don't be so much like me where I abandon hope and wander in insanity

I strive that is what seems to be

I tried to do better

I still try

And I know that Allah is all merciful and all just and he did not make me this way by mistake

Because I help those around me and maybe that is my purpose

To bring love and peace and good cheer to all creation

That sit stands walks moves or breathes

It all deserves kindness indeed not just humanity

So plea with your lord indeed

Allahu let me see the eye of the storm the calm serenity

And this is with you alone

That Islam is my medicine and I shall be steadfast

still striving

Let's start the path

Let's create our deeds

I'm stuck within the insanity

Up down all around confusion here and there

Rage, anger

Carnage devour

Hate bitterness

Struggle hurt

Losing hope minute by minute

Some of us have the struggle in life

Be the work of the jinns

Or magic

Or mental illness

Mental illness is a thing

Why don't people understand that in modern medicine there is belief that there is such things as schizophrenia

Bipolar, borderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder, pica, anorexia, bulimia

Someone who strives

Get destroys themself at the same time

Wanting nothing more, but to better oneself

So here I am striving to do good deeds

Is this insanity

I do these deeds over and over again not for the reward you see

But it's the best of deeds to help another within this world

And I tried to help myself and I am helping myself and I am getting better but when my episodes happen in mania and a depressive state

I bleed tears from my eyes you see

Destined to be within this Insanity forever

Some lives are harder than others but life is not a test with no challenges

We all struggle and this is our Jihad

For there is struggle within humanities life forever

Within this dunya

So let us breathe

And do good deeds

Let us pray

To lighten the soul

To find serenity, to be balanced

For you not Allah

This is what you need

To love self to be able to love others to be able to allow yourself to surrender to the God Almighty Allah

Bismillah  ar Rahman Raheem

Recite with your heart you see

Be sincere within your destiny

Humble yourself ever so much that is your piety

Charity is the best of deeds

To build another up, to teach that is what we need to do

For the next generation to come you see

So help those younger than you and perhaps older than you 

Strive to help one another

This helps you keep within sanity

But be unique you see

Because each heart is

Peaceful indeed

I am content with me even within insanity

So Allah said be

So here I am striving to be

part two

5 by 6 part 2

For every Muslim to believe they must believe in these articles indeed

A faith you see

This is needed to be complete

The first article indeed could be belief and one deity of monotheism indeed

That we believe in Allah the one and only worthy of worship

The most gracious the most merciful

Beneficial the loving

So many words are named for him

I'm sure many words are still unknown to us that we know

Second article, belief in angels and jinns

As Angels were created by God with no free will and do what God has commanded them to do

And then we come to a curious creature like ourselves with free will

Born of smokeless fire

The jinn, they are just like us you see

They strive they please

Some atheist and some are Muslim and some are Christian

Not all rebel against Allah

So it is a must that we believe in these two so far

Third article, the books the books the books you see, there are meant for us indeed

To have belief in what was revealed to the Jews the Torah indeed

To the distorted version of what the Bible was is the true message that Christians should believe

But they have modern ties the religion so much to go to the desire and not to please Allah indeed

But we still have respect for these such books for they are Revelations of Allah indeed

And we have belief in our own book the Quran you see

Perfection at its Max

You have to believe in this you see

With just these three articles, do you see

Fourth article, believe in the prophets that come forth to us humanity

To show the message of monotheism

From Adam to Noah to Abraham to Solomon to Jesus peace be upon them all

Lastly the belief in the Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him is needed to seal this that he is the seal of the prophets that you see for we do not believe in false deities nor false prophets that come to be

Fifth article, We are preordained in this world

One word Al Qadar

Faith as you see you must believe in this

As it's wondrous indeed and show a light in your heart indeed

To know that you were guided in this insanity

To look for the heart indeed for the not is in all

That is right

Finally made it to the 6th article

And every human every jinn shall meet this day and that itself is the final day

The day Resurrection

To reflect upon your deeds those angels upon your shoulder will scribe a book of your deeds that Allah shall see

And judge you accordingly

But remember Allah is all merciful and all forgiving

So don't forget to repent and Dua your supplication

The dhkr for the remembrance

All these are needed you see to believe

So when you were studying Islam you see

It shall bring on understanding if you read it all

Open your heart and breathe

Let the light 

Conquer the darkness

Please just be within the Ummah

That is what needed for peace

So come on follow me

Better yourself within this insane world we see

To please Allah the one and only worthy of worship

So just breathe and follow your heart with no judgment indeed

We shall see

Inshallah

5 by 6 part 1

To connect with God

To be within hope

Surrendering yourself to Allah

To seek serenity

Perhaps a few words may bring Noor

Letting the knowledge in

Wondering always about Allah

If you know, you must do

Do not deny haq

Or you may fail

Trust your heart at first with humbleness

Testify there is none worthy of worship but Allah and Muhammed saw is the seal of prophets

Your shahada from great news more that witnessed one

For only sleep can see your heart your eman you're hope

Desires come arising

But we know our Deen

Another pillar seems to be

Offer Salah, when ever needed

It is just with the deen

To build eman

To strength our sabr

Acquiring something of Hope

For exciting will come to you from time to time

Do not fret for Salah shall save you

And that's why we pray five or even more times a day

To strive

To gain

To glisten within the light

All Muslims gathered to be

It's obligatory to us you see

The mighty kaba within Mecca

A great place where Abraham built to worship thy Lord

Even the mountains around Mecca gives salam

And when we do this within our life it is called haj indeed

It pulls you closer to the oneness of God

As you surround yourself with the Ummaha

To please thy Lord

To surrender yourself indeed

How the Quran was revealed to us the prophet Muhammad peace be upon him

Was he was fasting within the mountains of Mecca

When an angel appeared and told him to read

But he was unable to because he could not read

The angel commanded again read and he was able to read something he could not read before

And it was revealed to him that he was on Prophet the new revelation to the world

And so in remember to him

We fast

Especially within Ramadan

From dawn to sunset

Many things you cannot do

Not just eating or drinking but lying too

And some more than most do not know this

Some maybe ignorant to what they know

But may Allah guide them so

Finally we reached the fifth pillar

It's something wonderous indeed

And to be a Muslim you have to need the desire to do charity

Zakat is needed

And do not tell others of what you do donate

For is should remain between you and Allah

And a charity is not just money you see

It could be a small deed

Or smiling indeed

Just because you're poor with money does not mean you cannot do charity with your mouth your mind and your emotions

Do you think those do not count

They do for Allahu created you

So here we are being as we said to be what is the beligatory to us

These five pillars of Islam you see

But they are not only what you need

So we will see....

qadar

Allahu Alam

Only God knows

Did you know he knows all

For he is absolute

You cannot hide from his watch

As he sees beyond what reality is

He sees into your heart and your true desire

Is it to do Haram or do halal

Is it your pure ego that is driving you

Humble your soul, so you can be

Under the protection of the watchful gaze

Not only does he watch but he knows what you desire

For Al Qadar

Is well-known to him and him alone

Allahu Akbar

God is great

Not only in great but the greatest

Worthy of the worship in him alone Allah

You should be fearful of what he can see

I'm sure some of it he will displease

Nothing is hidden from his watch

Not a lie not a sin not a destruction

What pleases him most in his watchfulness

Is to see you strive

Isn't that devine enough

To do your works within the will of God

Is this not desired

Well maybe you should set your ego straight

We are but servants and slaves to Allah

And he is only worthy of worship

He does not need us to pray for him or to him 

We the people are the ones that call out to him, in our supplication to him alone

As many of us repent day after day hour after hour

That is what makes the difference between most

Some are god-fearing

Some fear nothing but death

Some fear the sadness within their hearts

Do they not know that the sadness can be cured with the Quran itself

With sincerity to Allah alone

To surrender with your heart and soul

Being mindful of the situation that be's

Look upon this time of insanity

Do you think that Allah does not know what one desires

What we need is Hope

This can be found within Islam

You just have to strive to look to open your heart

To allow monotheism fill you

To bring the light

To bring the solitude within the emotion

To be mindful of what you think and say

Allah said be so let it be let it be

Striving indeed within this dunya

Let us breathe bowing down to thee

The one and only Allah you see

Allahu you are the only one for me

Not just for I I desire you be for all

The pre-ordainment is written for you

So let's breathe

Within this world that we be

To be mindful that Allah sees 

What we see within the mind, the heart that be's

Alhamdulillah

Thank you

For this watchful noor

Beating the darkness down

Don't forget to pray

This will center yourself you see

Even within the insanity you will be peaceful indeed

This is what we need

So rememberance of how watchful Allah is

Remember of the deeds

Good or bad try for the best

The intention is what matters

Do not for self

But for bettering the world and humanity

So please

Let's be

Striving within the deen

Allowing the dunya to unite

Alhamdulillah

Thank you Allah

Curious Does the mind seems to be

Stuck within the destruction of the insanity

Will sanity ever come

To stay awhile

Get here I am up and down in the mania phase

My heart can't stop beating until I die

Rapidly at pumps as an anxiety attack kicks in

My heart is burning

The aches and pain of the insane mind

Conquer my heart but surely not my soul

Until I met the truth you see I was lost within destiny

Now I know that my destiny has changed

For peace is here near and dear

To not allow the emotions to conquer me

Let the feelings go

I'm stuck on a railroad going round and round and round

It's roller coaster time are you ready

On upon the top do you know what it means on the pawn to talk to you know what it means I pray to the ground and hair I am I underground and here you see here I see beyond reality and everything seems to be right here in the mind in DC everything seems a bit reality everything seems a bit DC with Superman and everything seems big and he what if there was a really really cool how come there is a Supergirl and not a super woman yes I tell you BS yes yes yes I tell you this I tell you that this turned into a rap you know that I don't know what to do as the mind seems crazy in the who here I am watching this did the who even exist still I'm just old old you see all the soul and young body as I get id'd everywhere I go get it right little one I'm insane in the membrane and here we go

Guidance

So lost within the world

So much is needed

As we bend to our materialistic wants

This is not what needed for humanity

Don't you see there is guidance indeed

From all the wonders of the world and beyond it is found

You just have to look for the signs

They everywhere within you and everything that be

You must conquer your heart and bring it to the Noor

Set aside those nasty desires

For they twist and turn and turn hate into your heart

This even happens within people who are guided

For remember there is one that will always whisper into our hearts from every direction

To move us away from the great guidance

For he Snickers within the darkness

But look for that light inside

It may be just a flicker right now

The guidance that these is from God indeed

And who is this God but Allah the one and only were they worship

I was lost within my path many times

But I always found guidance within my steps

Though the insanity has grown too far thick within the mind

I find peace in solitude within Salah

Don't forget to make wudu

Constantly to keep you pure

When you're feeling low

Do 2 rakats just for the soul of it

Remember we're trying to lighten our soul

For there's many stepping Stones to jannah

Will we meet again within our destiny

Just let that light keep on shining

To keep on guiding

So you will keep on wanting

And never give up

For guidance is here there and everywhere

Since the dawn of time and has been there

Do not fret and maybe unusual at first

But just do you

Follow this guidance and take small attempts to success

the world

Where do we reside

But on something peaceful indeed

The world's so vast perfection in beauty

It's meant for us humanity

We are the caretakers of this Earth

After all there is only one Earth

So many cultures around the world so many religions deemed for you and I

Some have as many trials within this world

But within this dunya you will see the perfection that Allah has made

As the world is majority water so is the human body so can we relate to Earth itself

There are so many living things on this planet though humanity deems themselves to be right in everything

Pouring out toxic fumes and ruining our environment

Slave labor is still a thing so is sex trafficking in the Free world the new world and third worlds

It's a sad reality indeed

But I pray to my God indeed

As there is nothing left for me

His love inside of me 

I take his commandments to the heart

Let it be let it be Allah said be

Only one with complete perfection can complete world creation and the universe itself

Vast and wonderful like a carpet the world is

So stride against it and discover

There may be knowledge here or there

Peace resides in the human soul

Often we are at war, sometimes with humanity

Times with inner self

So let's plea, and plea

Within this world of tarnished chaos and insanity

To revert back to the old way

To find peace within the Earth

To find peace within your soul

And let your heart not perish

To look a deer in the eye as it stares sternly

You see true nature within their hearts

And we can see the heart within the eyes for the soul peers in

So when you think of this world think good things for we only have one a green and blue planet indeed full of life and freedom

Surrounded by peers

Let it be let it be

Even in this time of chaos Insanity Dean for the planet as you see

It is still in perfection

As Allah deemed

So blessed this world as you travel upon it

Do not forget to give your Salah to the mountain

For all nature and humanity prays to thy Lord

And within this destruction that we feel

Allah will deem peace for us

So I will leave you with one thing

Take care of this Earth we live for there is only one

Trials

Ready set go

Status within the illusion you see

Depends on what you want to be

Do you want to wallow within the wisps?

Or do you strive within the Deen?

Are you lost within your path

Holding on to something that may not be good for you

To puff puff pass

Allowing the illusion of happiness to be deemed by this

But truly this is not meant to be

As I stand here so

And kneeling and head to ground

To be within hope

Let us pray let us pray

It's not meant for God he does not need us 

We are the creation, made but from clay as Allah blew his breath in us

We are not perfect for perfectionism is for Allah only

But we strive to do good to do the best of deeds The Good deeds to allow those angels to write down so soundly what you do each day

To remember that those scribes will come to you on judgment Day

Have some taqwa

Within God you see

There is truly sanity

Life is but a test in some struggle more than most

But Allah said be so here we are as we are.

Struggling on to the hopes of humanity in this materialistic world

I'll let you in on a secret happiness is not found in the materialistic things

With Allah indeed within the Ummah

We do our supplication to him all day everyday and we don't forget the rememberance of him in his names

99 of them knowing so far

The beneficial

The just

The loving

The merciful

The gracious

So why not follow Allah for within the books there is distortation because humanity has changed so

To their desires you see

You cannot pick and choose what God has deemed for you What is lawful, and unlawful

But here I am pondering so will this really work it didn't before

But then again I have changed who I am

I have not seen beyond reality in a while

At least Islam brings hope for the future

Hating on one another is not the deen

One another should build each other up

Do not forget the world and other Muslims who are not human

For we are the caretakers of this Earth

So remember without this world we would not be

And that thought itself is insanity

Maybe the end times are near so to say

But have hope

And never stop praying

Bring the piece to heart

Allahu you're the only one for me

For I'm not afraid to stand alone

And the trials are yet to begin

As I tried to stop the smoke from penetrating me

But here I am still being 

Stuck in the chaos once again

But that little light is still a shining inside

Do not forget and always speak truth

no ways

Why must the days start this way

Will this day ever end

A phase of mania, you see a hypo state of being

There's lots of different types of mania don't people know pick up book don't you want to know

Educate yourself about society seek that knowledge let It be deemed for you and allow you to teach others

Don't take judgment into your heart and don't cast judgment on others

No one knows another person unless they've walked a mile in their shoes said someone a while ago

As it twists and turns within my mind

Not knowing what reality is

And coming to the conclusion that there is no hope

No cure

No comfort

What is the point of living if you just get worse and worse as you age

I sure don't feel like I have hope

Everly my mood I'm on cloud nine you see I have nothing to stop me from doing a deadly deed so I write I scribe I want everyone to see I'm perfectly imperfect and this is what is meant for humanity

This may seem like a rant rather than a poem but I'm writing it in the mania of phase

May God give me patience within myself and within my health

My body aches from all the stress

My heart hurts from the anxiety

I don't want to be anymore

I just want to be free of my illness

But happiness is an illusion you see

For me anyways

Happiness can lead to mania

Oh great that's so thankful of God

And this creates bitterness within God

I don't know why I have to be so full of rage and angry and stressed and depressed and hateful and all these things I don't want to be this way I want to be Lindsey again but I'm not Lindsey anymore

Too many tears are wept each day

And I'm done on living so perhaps I'll see you tomorrow or another lifetime Allahu Allim

Scribes

 Finding darkness everywhere, can sure wear anyone down

To feel like the abyss is within the mist

Stop gather with me, to mindful of the past

As it be's within this reality, telling everyone soul

Of the darkness within thee, to sure please

Another with these words of hope that I scribe for me

This be my therapy, so read with no doubt that this is my heart

My mind some do not understand, and judge me

To allow the darkness to break free, for sometime darkness bring a comfort of deeds

I reckon these deeds might be the death of me

So I rely to my God, Allah indeed

To seek the light, a true noor

To get a flicker within the heart

To can love for self to love wholesomely

These be my scribes of my heart

Truth being the onset within me

I do not lie, that darkness resides

But the light will always conquer the darkness

That is Love from Allah indeed

what we want and need

What does it mean to have mindfulness and a God-consciousness and piety indeed

We really need this you see within our Deen

To acquire eman on demand

To be obedient to one and only Allah you see

Most Muslims you see have this indeed

As it is a structure for the mind you see

Taqwa right for thee

To have the right consciousness to God to know to need

To fear but love also for it is needed in piety

Piety is not just by our clothing, but by our deeds

Our actions you see

It has a much deeper understanding within Islam, because not one word means one thing, but it could be many things

Let us breathe and be mindful of the situation we need

To bring oneness with your heart

Allah fearing abundance 

Allah for he is Almighty 

You see this is not a dream come to be

It is a foundation within our eman

It is needed to structure so

Everyone does Haram, but one who does more that doesn't repent 

Is in a worse of mood in the afterlife

For those angels on left and right

Write down those deeds, you do the good with the right

To keep piety that's needed within the deeds

I do with Allah indeed

To round my spirit and humble thee

To keep yourself full of noor

To allow the abundance of God-fearing to surround you

And with this you will feel a lightly thing of piety

As it raised within your eman you see

This is what destiny is for us the Muslims indeed

To not forget this is needed to avoid the Haram and follow the halal

Don't be fooled by the desires those nafs indeed

The materialistic things of this world that people think they need

I know for a fact because of the Quran

The final message to man indeed

To not follow such quality as greed hatred

Emendity towards a fellow human and pride in many such things and it hurts a believer

Where taqwa is indeed

This can hurt you more than you see

It can lead down to a destruction and emptiness that be's

Rememberance of what this means taqwa indeed

Remember where you are at every sight you see, every emotion that be's

At times we will feel so lonely, but remember Dua, Dhkr, and Salah indeed It brightens the mood and makes you whole indeed

To remember this time we find on this world you see is, but a test that is meant for humanity

So let us remember Allah indeed

What he showed the prophet Muhammad SAW 

What was revealed to him is what we need

Not to be distorted beyond the bend

Even when alone remember taqwa

The God-fearing abundance indeed in Almighty piety

To have consciousness with this indeed

We know what we need

Will we seek it

To strengthen us indeed

Upon a path within insanity if I can find such this way

So can another within a world full of fools

To be fearful

To have love

To show our worthiness

For Allah you see

It's meant for us all within our hearts

This is the best the shahada 

To center self to be mindful

This will help you conquer taqwa

Practicing steadily within the deen

This is meant for you and I 

For Islam is peace indeed

Why Smile

Smile like you have no care

Like your nowhere

Staring so lightly

Is this nice to see?

To let it be

Why smile?

Even your empty inside, wanting to die

Does that mean you are a deceiver?

Maybe we are the believers

After all one of the best of deeds is a smile

and also a sunnah

Some the best of deeds are the smallest

Remember share your smile with everyone

Bringing cheer near and dear

Telling others there is hope

Even within this emptiness

Staring to insanely to look sanely

but smile for today

To bring hope another way

To brighten your noor

Brighten your path

To lead others down

Smile for someone today

Blessed be

So lovely

Done

I am wondering on this world of My reality

To not be able to see outside the box

I feel as though I'm trapped within the darkness

Pulling through the chaos over and over again

Wanting it to eventually end

Finding that hopelessness is at the end

Far nor bear

Do we know?

Truly not for that is not our place

I want to find solitude within myself

I want to be content with being ill

There is so many things I want but it seems unattainable

As sharks move within the sands of the sea

Will it ever be beyond insanity?

Well I ever believe in Hope of that reality?

Never quite sure, wanting much more

But feeling so scarred and tarnished so

And the Carnage is with me so listen please

I am not worthy

For what I do and see

I am different from the rest of you

I feel that energy around and I can take it as thy own

As it negatively affects me

Will I ever be at peace?

Well I know the virtues of peace?

In this time of my life you see

Or will it be granted to me on judgment Day just a glimpse of peace and Hope

Is enough for me

As tears rip through me

Unable to cope

I reckon I should just do Dua

Even that seems to be stopped by the insanity that be's in the mind that can't control reality

I want to believe in me that I am possible to overcome the insanity

But as the days roll on by and the months begin to begin to years

To worsen as you age

To have your psychiatrist ask you what he should do

What is the point really in this world anymore?

I don't care, I'm done

Next time it comes I will not fight 

For I am defeated

I do not know if I should relay my light to my deity Allahu you see

I want to please him so solely

But I'm drifting from the light

I just want to keep on going until there's nothing left 

The Carnage will not be subdued

For the devour is here

Never fear, it's something dear

Within thyself I feel

Corrupted within my will

Let it be let it be even with the insanity

As I scribe and ponder so wonderfully

Will this be the end soon to come?

To pass on the courage to another

To raise awareness of this curse

There is no cure for what I have

I'm running out of answers

I don't want to have that courage for that day

When I make that promise I made so many years ago 

I just can't let it go

I seek refuge in a love from the accursed Satan

I testify that there is no God but Allah and that Muhammad is the slave  and messenger of Allah

I cannot deny what truth is

Soon I will lose the war

I'm tired of fighting

So let's just calmly go with the insanity

what

Shall we start with this in the name of God the most merciful the most beneficial

The desire you see is coming to be

I don't know if I quite see Jannah you see

Because the insanity you see

But what is this light that we feel inside us is it truth or is it Allah indeed

What is the beneficial way for us?

If I must I shall tell you

Recite the best you can and do your prayers on time

And don't forget your supplication and your remembrance of Allah

What is beneficial to me is staying within the Ummah

To allow the light to guide me

From the first time I said my shahada I never surrendered because if I surrendered then I will truly lose self

The whispers in my mind you see

At times they conquered thee

But with thy protection from Allah I shall be guided through the straight and narrow path

After all this life is but a test from God himself, so it is best to please him

In doing so we worship thee only God you see the one and only Allah beyond reality does he see

To no absolute truth is not attainable to those who free seek for those who have free will for it is godly thing of all eternity

To know the past the present and future that is only for Allahu

Strive to know all and you will understand the world better and go into a world without judgment

For there is only one judge and that is Allah do not take his place and may not look good on your left side you see

Has the Angels write down in red pen on the left and a blue pen or gold pen of the right

When you are brought to the hereafter to answer to God those angels will arrive with their scribes of that you've done

Remember to repent

This will be beneficial for you

Inshallah you will know what I mean

times that be's currently

Sometimes I find myself in the abyss unable to list

How many emotions run through me and rip it in rapid do they go

A Carnage to a rage to an insanity indeed

Blessed be blessed be am I still with Allah indeed

To hear what I hear I wonder and I ponder what is right?

Upon realities dream will it come to be blissful indeed

Able to cope just words to cope words and words and many more scribes depend to paper to more and more

Does anyone care if I survive?

I'm almost done this fight you see

It'ss tiresome indeed

Blessed be blessed be I am a not alone you see

For I'm not afraid to stand alone against The whispers you see as I seek refuge in Allah from the outcasts that Shaytain

Blessed be blessed be this life indeed

Advice indeed

 what do people want in this life?

I cant say for others

I want to allow the emotions to rip rapid 

Unable to cope

You see with this insanity

So please listen to me

I do not choose to strike about

From happiness mania comes

Manic uncontrollable emotions to bear

Upon time you see its set still

I am a maniac

This is me, surely

Only within insanity

To please hear me

I strive to be good, so should you

Sabr is important use and understand well

Don't let that darkness take over

For we fight always

That is our jihad

To I plea with the lord indeed

To save me from myself

what we need

Feel the solitude, seeping into me

 As I despise what is become of me within every day, I change over, and over again 

I never am the same

To say this within reality, but not knowing what an illusion is 

Happiness can be the illusion, so display an illusion you will see what's beyond this reality

With it will you see, will you truly see? What is truth, what is within the light? So do need this indeed for every human and creature 

To give a smile a kindness, a good deed to one another 

To be good to this world we live in, because without it we are truly lost w

Within the abyss not knowing where to go?

I find myself upon my destiny once again, falling into the abyss

Fo I miss what is sanity, I do not know indeed I feel though as I see 

What is in my reality is, but an illusion you see 

I am not welcome within my religion you see 

I am too radical with peace, love, and kindness 

I am thought to say that the prophet Muhammad peace be upon him was all those things too

 All he wanted was United Muslims

Humanity too, it's better to catch more flies with sugar than vinegar 

So remind this that you, do not know judge in a person's heart 

They could be fighting against what you think is wrong, they could be striving to please God

 

Indeed do not judge them but advice them be there for them 

Not passing judgment is not in our day To do not know what's within the heart

Only Allah can see, don't you know understand we need to be to be able to handle when the darkness 

When it comes for thee

Perhaps you indeed for those whispers you hear, and those dirty deeds 

We are stuck with him insanity and let the mind see 

What is this light that I see, over and over again  

That is, but Allah indeed 

So blessed be

Aug 10th

Alhamduillah

For you

Thank you Allah

To brighten the path

Rememberance I see

With hope there is Noor

Weather the wind roars

Ice wall's through me

Bearing with me

With the insanity

Let it be let be

As long I'm with Allah

I'm not afraid to stand alone

For that is light and haq

The oneness of God

We finally know from the final message

To Prophet Muhammad SAW

Let me breath

So deeply

That anxiety withers as strength from hope, Allah indeed

Bless it be

For the Ummah

Let us strive indeed

Tears

Memories here that be

Right down the lane

Storming with insanity

I want nothing but to be done

With emotions you see

It's overload as each one hurts

Worse then when happened

Scarred so much

I can barely breath

Will some of this pain lessen for me

I feel lost and down, consuming with feelings

Rapid as they rip through me

Brings me to my knees

Do I plea

Not lately

I'm losing indeed

Still fighting

Till the end

Striving for happiness

sadness lost of hope

Where to start

I'm broken beyond the mend

My mind twists and turns constantly it matters turns to rage I don't feel good most of the time people really affect me because I'm an empath and that means I see him feel with emotions that see beyond what you can see within the reality but all I can think about is the tears resident in my heart and fall down my face has each one burnt my skin but I'll always be alone because everyone leaves I have people that don't call me back I have people that don't message me back I have family that I haven't talked to in years why does everyone judge me so I try not to judge others that's not my job I just want friends and family but I have nothing but the blade flare the flare

Destined to be tarnished will I find my way I thought I did with him his mom could even then I'm not understand no one understands me I feel lost me on the bed in my heart is written telling me go to our myself and I'll never know if this is the right way but I'm done hurting myself inside with all the emotions that flow why doesn't anyone understand that I can't control what happens to be I can't control the delusions the confusion the race to time will I live alone life probably not because eventually I'll lose the war and then the end will come and no hereafter for me I just want to stop existing I don't want to be this way anymore but I've always been this way and it just gets worse and worse as age so if you don't hear me or talk to me that's okay I've been alone since the start

I hope you have a good life

edgewalker

I wonder how this be's within the insanity

As my heart sees beyond reality, in the delusion you see 

I can't recognize what is right in the light 

I'm misguided you see at this time of rage and anger and fear 

You see, perhaps someday a cure will be found, but not in my lifetime 

I do not think, but who knows 

For there is a cure for everything for Allah cures all

I am far from perfect, perhaps perfectly imperfect 

As my mind goes up and down in the emotions that flow 

I remember Allah is always by my side 

To seek refuge in God from the accursed Satan 

What if it is not from him?, but from God indeed 

For Jihad is not just fighting in a physical sense

One of the most important ones is your spiritual self, and your personal self 

The ones that you go through every day of your deen

Alhamdulillah inshallah mashallah

These are all good words we should say 

Minute by minute, day by day until we rest in the grave

 For when the angel to collect our soul

To stand before our God, the angels bestowed on our shoulders

Then we will know what the end happens 

Until then we never know for we are not God 

We do not have absolute truth, I sit here pondering upon the days sky 

The mind is very distorted, but my faith is coming back 

Alhamdulillah

Always

memories pain and joyful

As I start to remember 

It blazes past me like a sharp blade to the skin 

The emptiness within, I'm trying to find joyous things in those memories of the past

To remember the good and forget the bad, to not blame myself there's something

That I cannot control to, leave it to God for he knows all

To wonder and wander upon the universe 

Shall one be within the light or cast aside within the darkness, but to remember fight the darkness

To never let go

Just because I forgot his voice does not mean I do not forget the emotions

I felt and the true love of a parent to a child unconditionally

I plea, and plea with my Lord indeed

Time to ponder....

To remember to stop, evaluate to express

 Write your heart out 

Pen to paper, letting it blend for the canvas is ready for the color and shades 

To be known as Noor 

Remember to always look for it even within the insanity that be's

Journey

Here we are again, wandering into the night sky

Wondering if this is upon the day, to come hoping for something that the master seeks us for and we are beckoning that we are ready 

Firstly you will see the actions, by the Prophet Mohammed we will peace be upon him

At times I feel so broken and burden to the Lord 

Tarnished until I break falling to the ground and failing to meet reality lost within the abyss 

Trying to levitate within the mist to find the truth, once again as it slips as each time you go into a non lunacy phase

I feel that as the Lord, is testing me 

Allah you are right to do so for life is just many tests for us to understand, to be humble to another to let the love flow

We do as the prophets before us have done, what had the messages truly said to be kind to one another, and do it on to those  would do to yourself

We're coming to the rise the sunrise and as we do would do we get through ready to do our Fajr, before we pray to God.

Saying Oh Allah I offered thee my prayer please accept my salah

Not giving up having some hope, climbing out of the pit even if this lucid mind is but limited.

Maybe I will rise another time more motivated to be simply free

As the freedom bares with me I allow some sanity, will this be possible

May having such hope means to please thy Lord

So Dhkr is best for you and I

It's said helping one another is whats best of deeds, the smallest, and the humble we become

To let say to the day Alhamduillah thank you Allah for Haq 

July 21st

 Do you feel this time

Upon the daring memories

Must I see them, all over again

As each emotion burn, tears touching the skin burning lightly so

Shall I spend  another decade, wallowing in the abyss

Afraid to rush into the bliss

Understanding not what is right, for the emotions ever flow

Upon this time I am better so

But still burning tears to the face

More tears this year than before

Its been 27 years,  a horror to self

I want to scream, but my voice inside is silent

As emotions flow to the brim

Bursting at rim

Ready for flight, or fight, 

Perhaps freezing 

My mental health is but solitude, I try to gather thy emotions

To be a solid and not bend

Will this be thy will

nothing but Willing to please

As I plea with an unknown deity 

Why much hate for self?

Shall this be another year of sorrow

Waiting for September

Ready to plea

With a lord indeed

The October a double hitter

Only to hit winter to spring of depression state

So lets levitate

To the new arising

To be free, even from sanity, so I plea and plea

So suddenly

Free as I can be

Just breath

Clarity

Falling onto the path of uncertainty, why must it be this way
To inhale the bliss to dismiss what may be right
Uncertain are the daggers to my heart of thy mind does it tear
Emotions run rapid on my body, does it quiver ever so slightly
To Suffer so much that chaos of my mind soul and body enters artificial bliss
One medication dose, then the noon one
What possesses me to not take supper and whats the point?
I falling into the pit, and I ran and jumped with glee to get here
Is this whats meant to be within the insanity beyond the clarity
Do I see? Whats meant to be
I refuse to suffer more and more so I grasp what maybe a light
To rip twist turn
To make new rifts so the insanity doesn't distort
This is right in this light whats meant for you and me
To invite whats deemed to be
So I write, to write my heart and every emotion out
I am here
Remember me, with my words
New rifts to be within what I deem in the Clarity
Sun Soaked bliss, That I not not dismiss
Smile its deemed for you and me
Beyond the suffering
The chaos is near, but the bliss wins the race
Clarity dismisses the insanity, that is what is right
Once again I am Free to Be within this destiny

Striving for Love

 Changing for solitude, to retreat to the deadly deeds

Fallen, ready to bleed.  Is it time for me?

Finally I feel free, maybe a skill or two will help the burdened so

Tarnished beyond control, the tears rolling down the face, and burning so 

What is Love?  The Sky? Death? Humanity?

So many questions, not many answers.  As we live

Only to die, so breathe another breath

Love is needed, wanting to enter your soul

To bring peace, so bare with me

Wandering the night sky to dawn wondering what is to come?

Let us breath, finally upon the insanity

Strive once more, we are strong, we are gathers of love

As we express through a gesture, a kindness, a smile, a hug

It's all needed in this life, to keep us from the solitude

Drifting in the abyss, ready for anything

I am strong, for if I made it this far, maybe I'll find peace

With this peace hope will come to conquer the darkness and comprehend hope

What is this Hope?  But striving, want nothing more

Than to please Thyself, ThyGod, ThyFamily

For this Peace for all will be everlasting

Never fear, nor fret, to drop a tear of sorrow, wipe your face clean

Smile for another day, to fight, to breath, and to need

Reaching for the brim, will i find the way through the haze

To serenity.....Just breath

Hoping for peace

 Where do you find the answers? Upon each day, strive, care to share

Each wisdom you know, look deep within humanity, and lead the way to a good deed

Pay it forward, remember not because of the deeds.  This commanded do good to others

Do you know we all have many jihads, some much more higher than others

We all have our nafs, we can not choose.  Only when you let it fester

Remember sabr is needed, dua for the soul, and dhkr for the remembrance of oh Allah

Found in every soul within the universe, it's time and time again. Upon the day to the night

Salah calls for you, for us all.  Found within nature, give your salaams to the mountain.

Everything that lives and breaths,

We are the caretakers of this world that Allah has made for his most precious creations

We live here within heart, soul, emotions , and burdens bring us together

I say unite for the ummah, let us follow the sunnah together

As the Prophets revealed to us children of Adam PBUH to Musa PBUH with the stone tablets for the people

To many more Peace be upon them.

Find your way to the truth that is islam, as emotions flow so silently for once 

Free from the bounded chains of chaos, but to be free with Allah in site

Thank you Muhammed SAW for guiding the way once again lasting us long into the grace of Allah

So wonder and wonder where you would be within the truth with peace....